Fairylover2008's picture

Wow

I went to a party on the 24th and maybe the mix of
hot people and beer alcohol wasn't a good thing but
for the moment in that time I could forget all the
stuff that has happened this month. I thought
when I lived with my parents to much was happening
in this month what would happen in a year with my
parents has already happened I have so much stuff
go wrong and so much stuff fall through and so much

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How Do I

I am going to have to physically hurt someone and that
is something I have not wanted to do. I never asked
for attention. I never asked for someone to like
me and I never asked for anyone to get close to me
and know that someone has I am going to have to
tell them that I don't like them like that but we can
still be friends. I hate myself right know and I
don't want to do much. I just want to be alone.

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Its getting easier

I have had a concert every night since Monday it seems
and since Mon and Tue where my days off from waiting on
tables that made it even better. I have performed
even when I have had to work because I got off at around
7 or 8 except on Wed and then I didn't have a show
I am loving being on stage I miss it the most and
my guys will be going with me on tour and then they are going
on different tours with different groups I am staying to pack and

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Almost done

I am to the point where I don't want to do anything
I laid around yesterday till work. I didn't do much
but listen to loud rock music. Then Today till
work I have been idle on the internet. I am writing
alot and poems are coming out like water. I know
thought that right know that is all you are probably
going to get out of me. I am just a little depressed and I
am worried about picking up anything sharp and

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Almost done

I am to the point where I don't want to do anything
I laid around yesterday till work. I didn't do much
but listen to loud rock music. Then Today till
work I have been idle on the internet. I am writing
alot and poems are coming out like water. I know
thought that right know that is all you are probably
going to get out of me. I am just a little depressed and I
am worried about picking up anything sharp and

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Time is all I need

Seeing myself getting back up and moving along the best I can
is something I am seeing. I am moving along. I
now know what I am going to do. I have decide tour
during the summer with my group and then move to
Tennessee and go to Austin Peay. I am not going
to be able to stay here and I take this as a sign
that maybe I shouldn't stay here. I am going to
go ahead with my plans and keep going strong because

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Not you its me

I have been having a terrible last couple of days
Not to meation I am glad that I didn't move in with
this guy because Saterday night whatever we had going
was ended Him saying that I am a cool girl and that
right know he can't give me what I need
I didn't let him see me cry and that I can say
yet I understand know why some guys hate it when
they date a girl and she still wants to be your

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I will carry you

So a bunch of girls from work decide we would go to
a club in a few days for a girls night out thing.
I have became more invovled in my community. I
am helping run the GSA at the local high school
as everyone knows. I am also working a job which
puts me in contact with people who are in power to
help me. I am also watching my relationships with
people get stronger. I am not so afraid to let people

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Time is running out

I stood for a good hour just trying to figure out
what was going on. I can't belief how everything has gallen
into place. My sister left a couple of weeks ago
I moved finally and I didn't move in with the guy
I am "hanging" out with because I decide I didn't
want to get there and not have a way out. He was a
little sad but he understood what I was saying and
that is good because I don't want to be stuck

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No More Please

O.K. I am going abosutle insane. We made up a game
called "Who am I" in which we ask question and you
have to answer. Well the other night the four of
us where sitting around just hanging out when
all of a sudden out of no where his roomate ask the
question "Who am I" and then ?Whats the longest
you've went without sex? which started the who game
That lead to more questions what type of kiss's did we

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Oh my gosh

In the long run this has been a lot of fun. I can watch him for hours but falling
in love kills me. I wasn't ready for thi nor did I plan it and know I may have to take in three
kids with whom I don't have the money to raise. MY cousin is a truely terrible mom
and the state has asked me to take custody of a five year old, a four year old (both boys) and
a two year old little girl. Plus she is about to have another child and that

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Need no help

Then again just with that I am lying because at the rate I am going I am spinning
out of control and can't keep anything in line. I finished packing my stuff but I
have also left stuff out for the next two weeks. I still have to pay rent till
the end of May but I only have two more rent payments. I am so glad that school
is about to let out and then I will be moving maybe. I am going to move in with this

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Understanding me

So maybe its been a hetic couple of weeks. Yesterday my sister finished packing
she left enough stuff to finish out her last week of school and then she has another
week here and then she will be leaving for Florida to stay with are older sister.
I am going to miss sharing a house with her. My guy I am talking to has
convinved me to move in with him and his two roommates. one guy and another girl

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Problerms

Then really not. I just like this guy and getting to know
him these last few days I find that unlike some
people I know he can make me blush and he can make
me extemely happy and I don't want to be held back by
labels. I guess in the end I am going to date who I damn
well please. Screw the labels because right know
all they do is tie my hands behind my back and make
it impossible for me to do much. I have also found

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Too old

News on my life in general, first this guy wants me to move in with him and
his two roommates both of whom I know from work. I like his roommates one is female
and the other is male and they are dating. We are still talking but we have
moved a couple of steps towards what we want in this relationship. My sister will
be moving in with my other sister during the summer. This is because my
band may very well be going on tour. Something we have been wanting to do for

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