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Don't Go Changing, To Try And Please Me...

Damn, this has been bugging me for a while. It sounds quite vain and self indulgent- but I couldn’t give a shit….

Back story: Before I found my little group of friends, I was a complete loner- I was also a Goth and pretty much the class freak. I didn’t care too much though; I skipped lunch and volunteered in the school library whenever I could- so it wasn’t like I was just hanging around on my own all the time. Then I made some friends, who didn’t like the library, so I stopped working in the library and started to hang around with them instead. They’re pretty cool guys, accepting and everything- although to begin with they weren’t Goth and didn’t really like much about the Gothic culture- other than some punk music.

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I Can't Even Think Straight!

Ok, has anyone here tried to act straight by spotting hot people of the opposite sex when out with friends? Well, I did- or so I thought...

There I was, hanging with mates and picking out some people that, if we were braver, we would have gone up and asked out. I didn't want to declare my gay-ness/bi-ness by picking out just girls (don't know why, just seemed right at the time) and so I focused on the great looking Goth guy stood with his mates. Admitedly, I could ony see his back- but he had the chin length, black hair, rucksack covered in badges, black baggy trousers and black long shirt. I nudged my mates and pointed over to the gang, then described the guy I'd picked. We played the game for a little while longer, then got bored and walked off- past the gang of Goth lads. As we passed them I turned around and smiled at the person I'd chosen...only to see a beautiful Goth girl dressed in guys clothes- which isn't too unusual for Goths. I guess that goes to show that even when I try not to be- my true intents come out!

If you could have one operation for free- but it still had risks attached- would you go for image altering surgery?

Yes- facelift
0% (0 votes)
Yes- liposuction/tummy tuck
12% (6 votes)
Yes- nose job
4% (2 votes)
Yes- laser eye treatment
4% (2 votes)
Yes- lip enhancment
0% (0 votes)
Yes -breast enlargement
0% (0 votes)
Yes- breast reduction
8% (4 votes)
Yes- bum made smaller
2% (1 vote)
Yes- bum made larger
2% (1 vote)
Yes- thighs slimmed
4% (2 votes)
Yes- arms slimmed
0% (0 votes)
Yes- ears pinned back
4% (2 votes)
No way- surgery is wrong, even without the risks
22% (11 votes)
No way- it's too risky
12% (6 votes)
I'm not sure
14% (7 votes)
I would- but I'd have a different op (comment)
10% (5 votes)
I would- but I'd have more than one op.
2% (1 vote)
Total votes: 50

What is your favourite room? (Or if you don't have a favourite- where do you spend most time?)

Bedroom
66% (41 votes)
Living Room/Sitting Room/Lounge
3% (2 votes)
Dining Room
0% (0 votes)
Attic
0% (0 votes)
Basement
3% (2 votes)
Kitchen
0% (0 votes)
Study/Computer room
13% (8 votes)
Bathroom
0% (0 votes)
Garage
0% (0 votes)
Garden (not technically a room but still...)
0% (0 votes)
Library (if you have one in your house)
5% (3 votes)
Conservatory
0% (0 votes)
Gym
0% (0 votes)
Closet/Wardrobe (some are as big as rooms!)
2% (1 vote)
Poolhouse
0% (0 votes)
I prefere being outside
5% (3 votes)
I couldn't choose.
3% (2 votes)
Total votes: 62
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Thoughts and Texts

(A story that I need to improve, but needed to put down before I forgot it. I know the grammar is bad, and there's probably a few typos- but I'd appreciate any ratings.)

Andrew couldn’t sleep, no matter how much he tossed and turned or read or meditated he just couldn’t sleep. He’d stayed up watching late night/early morning TV, and had almost been swayed into buying some sort of SuperTool with extra attachments until he realised he’d never use it. He’d tried every technique he could remember reading about: deep breathing and visualisation, mathematics and even counting sheep, but in the end he gave up trying, and just decided to wait, just wait patiently until his eyes couldn’t stay open any longer, and his brain finally switched off and brought dreams of happier times, times when Nick was still around.

What is your biggest fear about coming out?

Disappointing my parents/family
12% (6 votes)
Disappointing my friends
0% (0 votes)
Losing friends
6% (3 votes)
Being kicked out of the house
6% (3 votes)
Going against my religion
6% (3 votes)
I just don't want a label
4% (2 votes)
I'M not certain about me- I don't feel right telling anyone.
2% (1 vote)
I've got noone to tell
0% (0 votes)
No real reason, I just like the closet
0% (0 votes)
The reaction of everyone else at school/work- not just friends.
10% (5 votes)
I already have come out (To you who pick this - well done!)
31% (16 votes)
I lived so long as straight- I couldn't just give it all up
0% (0 votes)
Because I don't want it to be true
2% (1 vote)
I tried...a few times- but it's hard
0% (0 votes)
The time just isn't right
8% (4 votes)
I think people know- without me needing to annouce it
6% (3 votes)
Other (sorry- ran out of reasons- please comment)
8% (4 votes)
Total votes: 51
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Crushing...on a piece of paper

Ok- weird title, but it's true! I've recently been watching a lot of Daria (if you've never seen it, it's a cartoon which follows the life of Daria Mogendorfer- a sarcastic, alienated, smart teenager in a world full of brainless, beauty obsessed popular people.) Anyway...I have recently been thinking, Jane (Daria's artistic best friend) is pretty damn hot. VERY damn hot in fact, for a cartoon! I think I'm cracking up... ooh, just had a thought- Jane AND Daria. Oooh- new realms of fantasy!

What is NORMALLY the last thing you do before you sleep? (Also counts if you fall asleep while doing the action)

Go to the toilet
2% (1 vote)
Read
6% (3 votes)
Write
2% (1 vote)
Exercise
0% (0 votes)
Listen to music
11% (6 votes)
Watch TV/movies
6% (3 votes)
Play on computer/surf Net
4% (2 votes)
Masturbate (be honest ;-) )
24% (13 votes)
Play an instrument
2% (1 vote)
Say 'Good Night' to loved ones
6% (3 votes)
Chat to someone on the phone
2% (1 vote)
Just think...
22% (12 votes)
Draw
0% (0 votes)
Play (action figures, board game, cards etc.)
0% (0 votes)
Eat/Drink
0% (0 votes)
Have a shower/bath
2% (1 vote)
I don't have a routine like that...
4% (2 votes)
Cry
4% (2 votes)
Beauty regime (shaving, cleansing, exfoliating, hair drying- whatever you do lol!)
2% (1 vote)
Unplug everything electrical in in your room
0% (0 votes)
Have sex
0% (0 votes)
Homework
2% (1 vote)
Other (comment?)
2% (1 vote)
Total votes: 54

Which of these would prove most of a turn off in a gf/bf?

They don't have the right look
0% (0 votes)
Music Preferences which contasts with your own
1% (1 vote)
Movie Preferences which contasts with your own
0% (0 votes)
TV Preferences which contasts with your own
0% (0 votes)
Bad family
0% (0 votes)
Bad Friends
1% (1 vote)
Smoking
20% (16 votes)
Awful sense of humour
5% (4 votes)
Too shy
0% (0 votes)
Too outgoing
0% (0 votes)
Smarter than you
0% (0 votes)
Dumber than you
6% (5 votes)
They hate your friends
12% (10 votes)
They hate your family
4% (3 votes)
Too many expectations for the relationship
4% (3 votes)
Not enough expectations for the relationship
0% (0 votes)
Messy eater
0% (0 votes)
Just a general bad personality
32% (26 votes)
Too scruffy
1% (1 vote)
Too vain
2% (2 votes)
They are too obsessed with something (eg. a band, Internet, a TV show)
1% (1 vote)
They are more experienced that you
0% (0 votes)
They are less experienced than you
0% (0 votes)
Different views on a contraversial subject
0% (0 votes)
Just one bad, but not dangerous, habit
0% (0 votes)
Religious differences
1% (1 vote)
Constant swearing
1% (1 vote)
Other (man I could have gone on for hours!)
9% (7 votes)
Total votes: 82
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Why I Never Talk About My Feelings to My Parents- All Help Appreciated, Please

Ok, I've been feeling odd for a while- I mean seriously weird. It's very hard to explain, but the closest I can think of is that I don't want to live. I just think about my future- working and working until I finally die- and I just don't see the point. I've tried to make plans, I've tried to get enthusiastic about SOMETHING and I've tried to take pleasure in friends, but I can't do it. I can't find any reason to live and I feel like I have been sent here from some other dimension and I shouldn't be here- I should be somewhere I have a purpose, a purpose which doesn't exist, and never will exist, on Earth.

Which of these scenarios scares you the most?

Being in your most important exam, and only understanding 3 of the 50 questions.
13% (7 votes)
Being trapped in a place so small you can't move.
13% (7 votes)
Being burnt alive
36% (20 votes)
Having spiders and insects crawl all over you
16% (9 votes)
Being thrown into a deep river with a suit of armour on.
22% (12 votes)
Total votes: 55

Which of these toys/games is the best? (Bringing back any memories?)

Mr. Potato Head
0% (0 votes)
Tiny Tears
0% (0 votes)
Fuzzy Felts
0% (0 votes)
Weebles
3% (1 vote)
Slinky
6% (2 votes)
Rock Em Sock Em Robots
0% (0 votes)
Rubik's Cube
0% (0 votes)
Transformers
0% (0 votes)
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
14% (5 votes)
PlayPeople
0% (0 votes)
Cabbage Patch Kids
6% (2 votes)
Buckaroo!
0% (0 votes)
My Little Pony
9% (3 votes)
Care Bears
6% (2 votes)
Power Rangers
6% (2 votes)
Raggedy Ann
0% (0 votes)
Rainbow Brite
3% (1 vote)
Viewmaster
0% (0 votes)
Girls World (the styling head)
0% (0 votes)
Stylophone
0% (0 votes)
Ronka Trucks
0% (0 votes)
Barbie
0% (0 votes)
Action Man
0% (0 votes)
GI Joe
0% (0 votes)
BB Gun
9% (3 votes)
Armatron
0% (0 votes)
Kerplunk
0% (0 votes)
Easy Bake Oven
0% (0 votes)
Stretch Armstrong
0% (0 votes)
POGs
9% (3 votes)
Pokemon Anything (there was sooo much!)
6% (2 votes)
Gameboy
0% (0 votes)
Mr. Frosty
0% (0 votes)
Silly Putty
6% (2 votes)
Wrist Racers
0% (0 votes)
Dungeons and Dragons
0% (0 votes)
Play Doh
11% (4 votes)
Etchasketch
3% (1 vote)
Speak N Spell
0% (0 votes)
Spirograph
6% (2 votes)
Total votes: 35
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Vampires! The Dark Alleyway

This is a recruiting link- the site is free to join and play, and you only need to create a username and password. I'm not forcing anyone to join- but if you want to go, and maybe just play around, then you can use this link:
http://quiz.ravenblack.net/blood.pl?biter=Lyra_Silvers

If you use this addy it will give me some blood in the game. If you'd rather sign up without helping, you can use the link:

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Mmmmm- hot Goth girl!

I was watching our latest school production rehearse today, and my eye fell upon the most gorgeous girl I had ever seen! She was beautiful, and the way she acted gave the impression that she was both a little shy around people, as she was getting pushed out- but she was obviously confident enough to get up on stage and sing in front of people- plus she had a damn good voice.

Hair: Long, black and to die for!

What do you MOSTLY do on Oasis?

Make, comment and vote on polls.
3% (1 vote)
Write and publish stories/poems/songs etc.
3% (1 vote)
Use it as an online blog for my real life
6% (2 votes)
Use the Email service just to chat.
3% (1 vote)
Post on the forums
6% (2 votes)
Read the news articles
0% (0 votes)
Make new friends
0% (0 votes)
Get advice on my latest problems
0% (0 votes)
I prefer to lurk, rather than submit
26% (8 votes)
Pretty much everything actually
32% (10 votes)
I'm new- and haven't really go to grips yet
16% (5 votes)
Other (sorry for what I missed out, lack of coffee and too much homework has addled my brain!)
3% (1 vote)
Total votes: 31
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