(I am a quitter! I know it- and yet it doesn't bother me. If the going gets tough, the Lisa goes runnin. That's part of the reason why I am starting a brand new story, while my others lie unfinished! I will get back to all of them- fanfic, regular fiction or just plans. Still- I've been thinking about this idea for a while and here it is.)
"I- I'm afraid it's not something I can personally understand," Maurice Green paced around his office, his brow furrowed and his spectacles in his hand. It was a dreary Wednesday afternoon, a day which was- by definition- made for relaxing in the office and ploughing through the confiscated paperback which was suspiciously concealed in the locked bottom drawer of Mr. Green’s desk. He did not really want to have to deal with the complex love lives of his students, particularly when they were as passionate as the one before him today. For one thing, there were so many ways of being ‘politically incorrect’ and risk the wrath of the Board of Governors; for another, they painfully reminded Maurice of his own failures in the world of love and romance- something which he preferred to drown in whisky and smother with a heavy workload. Maurice sank, as if these feelings were a physical weight on his shoulders, into his chair and looked over his steepled fingers at the girls before him.
(Ok- this is a story that is currently in my brain- and I need to write it down before I forget. It's not too good- but you can still read and comment if you want.)
The first flake fell from the pure white sky, floating delicately down onto the ground, where it clung to the grass before the blades sliced the tiny, unique beauty into a thousand miniscule drops of water. As if this was the sign they were waiting for, the rest of the flakes fell- faster and heavier and faster and heavier as I walked back towards the classroom, dragging my feet as I attempted to stretch out the simple errand I was running for as long as possible. I felt a sudden jerk in my stomach as I looked up at the snow, feeling a phantom hand around my shoulders- which was, sadly, on ly alive in my memory. There was excitement there too- an adreneline I knew couldn't be tamed with a lesson of double physics.
I used to have a mild need for coffee- but decided it was better to replace my love of coffee with a love of tea- which helped a little. Last weekend I had another cup of the sweet bean I'd gone without for so long, and I'm back where I started- only worse! I could shell out £10 if I had to, just to get some coffee down me- but seeing as I'm at school with no money and no chance of getting any, I'll have to wait.
(I've had this song in my head for a while- and I love it!!)
What's the matter with the clothes I'm wearing?
"Can't you tell that your tie's too wide?"
Maybe I should buy some old tab collars?
"Welcome back to the age of jive
Where have you been hidin' out lately, honey?
You can't dress trashy till you spend a lot of money"
Everybody's talkin' 'bout the new sound
Funny, but it's still rock and roll to me
You see, there's this girl....yeah you all know where this is going, and I think I like her. Well I'm not sure- I mean, it's been ages sicne I've had a proper crush, a prope fluttery, heart-hammering crush. I'm thinking that maybe I'm so desperate to have someone I love, or am crushing on, that I'm just going after the first pretty girl I see. I know she's straight- I'm 99.9% sure about it. I also know that she's really friendly, and she let me hang around with her when my friends were kinda leaving me out. I feel so comfortable around her, and today she said she loved me. Admittedly it was in a jokey way- but I loved hearing that.
Ok, it's happening again- and I wish it wasn't. You see, everyone is passing notes around the class- it's a usual thing- but what's bothering me is that my friends aren't letting me read the notes they send. I was trying to peek (I know, shameful) and I saw my name. I read through the back of the paper and I could see 'I've got something to tell you about Lisa', so now I'm worrying. Combine this with the fact that they've been practically ignoring me- and only talking when they need an answer to a school question- I'm starting to feel like bursting into tears right now.
Ok, it used to be so simple- I had a tiny crush on my best guy mate, but we decided not to go out- we knew it wouldn't work. He fancied my mates, and I only liked him because- well, I hate to sya it but I didn't want to admit to my feelings about girls. I guess my feelings on him grew, but I never wanted to date him- I just couldn't see past the 'mate' thing. We did a sort of date- going to the cinema together, but I never got the rush I got when I thought about dating a girl.
I'm in a Disney movie mood- and this is my second favourite song (behind Hakuna Matata!)
There's a calm surrender
To the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world
Can be turned away
An enchanted moment
And it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior
Just to be with you
And can you feel the love tonight?
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
(I adore everything about this scene- I have this song on my MP3 player and listen to it whenever I can.)
I lived my life in shadow
Never the sun on my face
It didn't seem so sad, though
I figured that was my place
Now I’m bathed in light
Something just isn't right
I’m under your spell
How else could it be
Anyone would notice me?
It's magic, I can tell
How you set me free