I ADORE Margaret Cho! She is the most amazingly brilliant hysterical
wonderful comedian/writer/actress/person/satyrist in the world! Ok, that
may be a bit of an exxageration, but she is still f*ckin amazing. There
are few other comedians that can make me laugh so damn hard. I wish I
could meet her and give her a big hug, and a box full of yummy godiva
chocolates, because she is just that awesome.
I can't get a date. I can't approach anyone. It is very frusterating. If
I am attracted to someone, I automatically move to the opposite side of
the room and pretend I don't exist. If I do try to talk to them, I end
up coming across as too eager or completely desperate, which doesn't
work either. On the internet I have run across several gals who are really
nice, and we've exchanged several e-mails. However, whenever I get to the
Recently my imagination has gone berserk in regards to my crush/love. I
was hanging out with her yesturday, and all of a sidden I started
imagining myself kissing her, and it just about knocked me over. It
was so realistic, and so out of the blue. Last night I dreampt that I
told her that I love her, and tried to kiss her, and she pushed me away.
It is something I would never do to her (she is straignt), but when I woke
I just watched the musical Sweeny Todd- the strangest musical I've ever
seen (and I've seen some pretty strange ones). It's about a barber who
is insane and kills his coustimers and bakes them into meat pies. It was
very creepy. There was a lot of dark humor and fake blood. Of course,
at the snack booth at intermission they were selling mince meat pies.
Myspace. I thought some nice gal my age might find my profile and say hi.
Instead I get creepy 25+ year old men who want to have threesomes with me
and their girlfriend, and one guy who wrote "So... you, me, some duct
tape, and a dark room... sound good?" ACK! Why do I attract perverted
25 year olds. I'm not looking for sex, I'm looking for a girlfriend.
Why are people such dumbasses. Are they just harassing me for fun, or
Wish me luck. I'm interviewing for Carleton college tomorrow. It is my #1
favorite college, and I really hope I get in.
Everyone in my class is stressed and bitchy and horny and tired and we all
need to take a nap. I am so annoying right now. I am turning into a bitchy
complaining homework zombie. I must be no fun to be around. I'm even
getting tired of being around myself. Damn. This sucks. Stupid homework,
stupid college applications, stupid stress. Why why why? Why can't we all
just get along? Why is my senior class acting like a bunch of middle
Is it possible that I am temporarily lesbian? I know that I WAS bi, but
recently I'm just not attracted to guys at all. Can a person's sexuality
change over time? Or have I always been a lesbain, and just thought that
I was bi, or am I still bi, but just am surrounded by unattractive men?
Sigh. Life is so confusing.
I have always been the sort of person who says "Labels are stupid, don't
let yourself get boxed into a label." However, I have this sudden
irrational need to label myself.
I have always said that I was bi- because I USED TO like guys, and I
definately like girls. However, recently I have the urge to go ahead and
say I'm lesbian. I'm not sure why I really want to label myself.
It's weird, though, because I said that I was bi, but when the opportunity
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I am feeling very snarky and bitter. Life is stressful, and it seems like
everyone except me is happily in love, or at least happily in lust, with
their boyfriend or girlfriend. School has become a fucking PDA love fest!
Don't get me wrong- I am all for PDA, but come on guys! It's winter, and
I'm feeling bitchy, so could you at least be a little discreet! God damnit!
I am so tired of being single! AAHH! I am 18, and I still haven't got my
I am irrationaly jealous of this one girl. Actually, jealous isn't quite
the right word. The thing is I really don't like her. She is the most
viscious, catty, and stuck up person I know. Her passtime is badmouthing
people behind their backs, and then being sappy sweet to their faces.
She is very superficial, and loves to flaunt her expensive clothing and
designer bags. Needless to say, she isn't one of my favorite people in
AAAH! There is a snarky epidemic at my school (for those of you who don't
know what snarky is- it is sort of a combination of bitchy, irritable,
short tempered, and snide). I am in 12th grade, but all of a sudden I feel
like I am in middle school again. People are acting so weird! There are
groups that just gang up on one person and bad mouth them behind their back.
Everywhere I go I hear the bitchiest comments- it is insane! What happened
I am cold. I need a hug. I miss my friends. I see them every day, but we
are all so tired and stressed and busy that we never actually get to be
with each other. We are all off in our own little universes of stress and
college applications and homework and more stress. I wish I could step out
of all this craziness for a moment and just be. I just want to do something
fun without worrying about why I'm not spending my time studying for the