my name is Jacob, i'm 17, soon to be 18 (december 2nd, same day as britney spears!!) this is my first post since like last march or something. anyways, i like photography, snowboarding (world's only pretty boy snowboarder i fear), i work in a coffee shop (caribou coffee), i'm homeschooled. my parents are super conservative, i just got out of a 3 month relationship, the 3rd that they've ruined. the first lasted for 5 months, the second for 1 and the 3rd for 3, so i guess i'm kinda an anomaly as teen gay guys go.
I'm trying to start posting some pictures in my personal gallery but it keeps telling me my pix are too big. does anyone know how to fix this? Can u tell i'm not a very computer oriented person? ("Jake, you SPAZ!!!!") If you know, tell me! pretty please!!
This tear is finally falling down my angry, sweaty cheek as I lay here alone, in the warm safety of the night. I've been holding it back since lunch. Am I cynical, negative? They have no right to lift themselves above my questioning search, no right to make me cry this single, bruised tear. All I want is the truth. The night closes in closer around me and the candle beside my bed, as I bury my face deeper into the pillow case. Why have they made it a sin to wonder?
Today has been one of those beautiful days when i don't feel like a victim for being gay! i even was able to smile at a couple of the church bitches this morning in between sneers to my folks. why should we gay people always have to feel different, like we're the ones who are wrong and weird. i know i'm hotter than the straight guys at church, i know their girlfriends all stand up for me, and today i was able to live it.
This is my first time writing anything online, so give me some nice comments, k?
Obviously, i'm gay. always have been, always will (hear that mom? well, guess not cause u'll never find this website now, will u!) my parents are insanely religious, my dad's an elder at our baptist church of 3000 people. my mom has homeschooled me all my life (what are u laughing at? homeschoolers are cool too!) and so my whole life growing up revolved around church, church kids, homeschool, other good christian homeschool kids. all the way from 7th grade to last fall (11th grade) i had tons of guilt and depression and fears about coming out. my parents had clues last fall when they caught me dating a 23-year-old (stupid) but i convinced them it was a phase. made up some lie about the cute girl i met on the church missions trip to peru. no entirely a lie... and no i'm not bi.