I really, really want to do this on National Coming Out Day (October 11, for the record): wear a completely rainbow outfit (red shoes, orange tights, etc.) and then hand out Skittles to unsuspecting students saying, "Taste the Rainbow!" and then running away.
One of my friends said that it was too over the top and in-your-face.
I can't date her.
I asked this girl out in July, and she said no because her ex-girlfriend might have given her an STD. She wanted to say yes though, so I've been waiting on her. I haven't seen her since then really, and I hung out with her last night and felt absolutely nothing.
Are people born gay? Or do they have gayness thrust upon them? After all, she had a mother. She had a father, as so many do...
Oh wow, I saw that thing in the Adsense bit that said "are people born gay?" and that immediatately popped into my head.
And it made me laugh.
You know those really annoying, nagging crushes that don't go away, no matter how hard you squash them with big, trampling hiking boots?
I just told my mom that I don't want to eat and that I am scared of gaining weight. Her response came down to this: looks don't matter, it's what's on the inside that counts, if I (referring to me, not my mom) were a gimme-gimme selfish child she'd be really worried, most 13/14/15 year olds have self-image issues, and what I'm saying isn't invalid. Then somehow we started talking about parenting.
I can't do this anymore.
She is my girlfriend and she loves me. She loves me despite the distance and despite the age difference. She holds me in her arms and I have never felt safer than I do with her. I have found the one I want to be with, the one who makes me feel alive. The one who makes me look forward to something with each day.
it's ridiculous. so damn ridiculous. i am freaking out over honor's chemistry, i have been all night, i haven't stopped crying since about 4:00 this afternoon, i just wasn't in a good mood today, people walk too slow at school, and i keep thinking about cutting. i won't do it. i won't i won't i won't i won't i won't. no no no no. have a chem quiz tomorrow. have a ton of chem homework that i really don't understand and honestly, i don't give a shit about any of it.
i will like a gay acting straight girl.
i will like a gay girl.
i will like a gay girl who has no interest in me whatsoever.
i will like a gay girl with a girlfriend.
i will like her girlfriend.
i may even possibly like a boy.
i will not, absolutely not, no question about it, like a straight girl.
i will not.
she's more off-limits than anyone else i've ever liked. and seeing her with her boyfriend really upsets me.
i was at this halloween party on saturday (which was awesome but that's not the point)
and two guys were flirting with me and i was flirting back. and honestly, it didn't feel
gross or anything. i kind of liked it. I'm also starting to like a guy. he's in the play
with me and he's so sweet. i sort of want to ask him out but then i'd be, i don't know, rejecting my race or something.
this is why labels suck.
my best friend is back in the hospital for depression issues and she tried to kill herself on friday night.
her mom had to call emergency to come get her.
and i'm freaking out.
i don't know what to think. i need to call her, see how she's doing, but i can't. she can't
take it anymore, but neither can i. which sounds awful. and i told our play director and i
don't know if i should have, but i just thought she should know why my friend isn't
20 GSA posters announcing the next meeting went up this morning. About 15 of them were defaced or torn down. it's not
like i wasn't expecting this. our school is very conservative, very christian, and very
homophobic. but seriously. people need to grow up. if they don't like it then just leave it
there. but that's their form of protest. i don't know. i'm a little discouraged and i
just get this feeling that the group is going to get annoyed with me for writing GAY kind
definitely got my eye on this girl who i know is gay (what a nice thing, knowing that they're gay instead of wondering in confusion for months), but the thing is, she's not my "type" so to speak. i personally don't think that it matters at all (she's punk and i'm, well, not) but my best friend is incredibly opposed to the idea of me asking her out. his reasons are that she's "the kind of person who would get drunk and high and have sex and get an std and not care." most of his information is based on stereotypes, which pisses me off, but i know that some of it is true, based on what she's told me.
it seems like all i ever do on this site is bitch. but hey, if people are listening, i will. our first gsa meeting is in two days. there is this ginormous packet of information that i need to get (since i am co president) from the former president's girlfriend. please note, i used to be madly in love with the former president. so i'm talking to the girlfriend today and i only had a few minutes because i had to go work on something else, and she tells me that she wants to be more involved with gsa than just going to the meetings. i said that maybe as the year goes on we could add more positions (another note: i'm trying to make her
so my best friend, who i love dearly and sincerely, is the gayest person i know. the second he opens his mouth you just know he's gay. he asked the guy he likes, who is STRAIGHT, to dance with him at the school dance last night. he turned him down. i told him that he should stop pursuing the straight boys because they don't like him and they aren't gay. they never will be and he's only hurting himself more and more by going after them.