Hi guys. It's been a little while.
I'm going on vacation in a few days so it's gonna be a while again. :P
But some awesome stuff has been going on recently.
I can talk about cisgender privilege to my heart's content as long as I don't use the words "cisgender" or "privilege"
As soon as those words come out of my mouth (or exit my keyboard) people's heads explode.
I've been making the mistake of mixing up "your" and "you're"; and "they're", "their", and "there" much more often recently. That never used to happen. I'm very visual and they're all separate words inside of my head and I understand the differences very well.
I was researching child abuse because, apparently the shit my mom has put us through constitutes emotional abuse. Go figure.
So anyway, on this site, blah blah blah. And then it's talking about how exposing children to violence is a form of emotional abuse (and um, that alone takes up a good portion of my childhood memories.) and then it goes "Even if the mother protects the children from being physically harmed..."
And I stopped reading.
And now I'm pretty pissed off.
So the last two days were amazing. Like. Damn.
Andum. I realized something.
I'll try to keep it brief though.
So I went to see the Pilobolus show (which featured OK Go in one of it's acts) in NYC a couple of days ago. It was, in a word, fantastic. I loved it.
Okay so my kitten attacks me like, twice a day. Outta nowhere. I can be sitting and minding my own business and BAM. Kitten attack. I am aware that he's only playing but he also has a lot of sharp parts and they hurt. It's a bother.
I was gonna write about a buncha boring school and music-related stuff but I decided against it.
So I guess I'll write about a bunch of other boring stuff instead.
We got a kitten the other day! He's soooo cute. His name is Artemis. I'm aware that Artemis is a goddess's name, but I was under the impression that he was female when I named him. Besides, Artemis is androgynous enough of a name and he's a cat so it really doesn't matter if his name is "Victoria" or "Gerald" or "Whiskers McFuzzybutt".
So I made a vegan version of this monstrosity.... And it's the most delicious thing ever but it's so awful because I get sugar headaches and like, my head was hurting just looking at it. Haha.
I took pictures too, because that's the kind of person I am. XD
I'm angry because at some point I realized I was dreaming so I bought a pumpkin pie, and I never got the chance to eat it. :[ I was so excited about it too! I guess this means I have to make a pumpkin pie sometime. One that doesn't taste like soy or tofu or something.
I got a break for like, maybe a week. Yeah. It's great. I bleed more often than I don't. That's fine. Fan-fucking-tastic.
It's totally legal now!
Just signed on to tell you guys that.
I don't like the words I'm expected to use to label my feelings.
I feel like I'm more complex than that.
Well, everyone is.
But that's just the thing.
It's almost like we expect everything to be simpler because our language generalizes so much.
Everything comes with a list of expectations.
As if that's how we should live our lives...
Based on expectations but not what we actually want.
There is a way to disagree with people without disrespecting them.
If you can't talk to someone without antagonizing them, then don't talk to them.
If someone starts something with you, you don't have to respond. Sometimes the most sensible thing to do is just walk away.
It's that simple.
And you know what? Every single one of us has problems bigger than your ridiculous antics, including you.
And honestly, if this is how you deal with people disliking you on the internet, I have no idea how you handle the real world. :/
So can we please just drop it?
Yesterday was my first time being around people without a binder in years. Like, hugging people and everything.
It was weird. My brain hasn't caught up with my body yet. I kept checking myself in the mirror the way I do when I'm afraid my binder isn't doing it's job. I'm still surprised by what's not there.
it was the most delicious thing in the world. It was delicious fudgy chocolate with random raspberry amazingness.
And I was in Northamption and they kept playing awesome music. Apparently the food service people in Northamption have great taste in music.
Then I went to get the drains taken out in Springfield and they took me in right away even though we were early, and having drains taken out is the weirdest feeling ever. Oh my god. Ugghhh. I'm so glad they're out now though, because they did their job and then they were just getting in the way of healing and being gross and obnoxious.