So I decided to go to Rory's party last night instead of fireworks at Alex's (Friday). About 50 people went - It was good!
Today the weather was... oh I can't remember.
Actually, now I do - it was raining. I had to take a 90-minute bus ride home from school because I missed my school bus. I had to converse with my calculus teacher and console one of my best friends on his less-than-perfect exam results. But honestly, he's still going to get dux though!
I was running through my old journals...
And it moved me so much.
It shocked me how much I've changed.
It showed how bad my english used to be...
How naive I was.
How genuine and simple-minded (as in uncorrupted) I used to be...
How I document all the trivial things
How I regurgitate the tiniest things in my life without polishing and refining - showing how I truly felt.
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Got most of my results back today...
So far I passed all my exams!
Really, really happy!
Oh, we're voting for prefects tomorrow. Hopefully I can make the cut.
Now I'm trying to write a story... damn, I miss reading and writing.
He's just so... sophisticated!
Starting to think I'm a little asexual..
It is the 17/08/08, early morning.
After a nightmare.
I'm going to write this down.
Because I'm not going to make this one of those moments that will fade away with time. That's all too depressing. If it slowly fades away, eventually it will mean nothing and that's frustrating. Instead I will transfer this abstract concept /thought into tangible words that will remind me for eternity.
Yesterday farewelled two of my best friends at the airport. They're going France for six months... lots of us cried (I didn't.. but maybe I should've).
We tried on ball dresses/stuff and took some kick as pictures! (to try and ease the pain)
- Saw comment from his new bf, indicating they've been going out since 09/08/08 morning at the latest.
- He was still texting me Friday pretending it's okay (about Olympic ceremony...)
- 'Busy with mom' on Saturday? Party at night? Who's party? He's so hung over on Sunday
- He still abruptly stops texting me
- Stop taking things for granted, bitch
- You don't deserve all this
Pendulum swings only that little lower
Yet it goes with more haste and only more rapid
Closer to its final halt with each consecutive swing
Ripples only try to extend
To the other side of the ocean
But eventually so dim that their faint outline
Blends into the slim shade of the soft surrounding
Bursting in flames and light
Shame that hastier is its hurried urge to
Mate... I just had the weirdest dream...
I just broke up with my 6-month boyfriend a few days ago... emotionally I've a lot more stable... but last night I had a weird as dream...
I dreamed that was at this party with this chick mate of mine... and we hooked up and all these 'other' things! I didn't think it was a dream and it seemed like I was 'into' it... Ay. WTF MATE.
xD But I'm gay!
- Yesterday's our six month (Monday)
- We celebrated two days before on Sunday
- I have mixed feelings about it
- I did that photo thing when he abruptly left. I surprised him when I got home. He said he was moved
- His parents found out he was gay yesterday
At a party last night two friends pulled me to the side and came out bi to me. They were quite drunk but they were serious. They wanted to tell me for ages but were really nervous lol... It's a guy mate and a chick! They're still closetted though, but it feels good people can trust me and talk to me about this 'cause I'm out.
It all makes sense now!
Okay I'm not good with titles. But having a mean low right now...
I'm confused about my feelings for my boyfriend...
Listening to sad songs aren't exactly helping either...
The best teacher I've ever had is leaving for Hong Kong in like two months...
Thinking too much, feeling too much, knowing too much...