Yeah, I was so wrong about him.
So so wrong.
And every love song seems to make sense to me now.
What an asshole.
When I don't know what to wear he says I can give wear a potato sack and nothing will matter.
When he obviously overdoses himself with too much Gucci cologne, I can't help but brush my face past his neck and smell his body and hair.
When I laugh he laughs with me.
When I cry he holds me in his arms and it feels like nothing else matters.
Man, he's the best guy I could ever ask for... he always know what to say... he's funny, hawt, cool and everything put into one.
Just yesterday he bought me a kiddie cup with my name printed on it from where he works.. and this morning he secretly drove to my house to drop off a bar of 'Dream' white chocolate in my mailbox.
Damn he's just so amazing.
W00t, hah well I'm planning to sign up for kidsline!
Basically it's a kids support service which you become an operator that helps children who call and give them emotional support. Oh, and there's like youth camps and other community stuff too. =)
School mock exams are finally finished!
I did alright in English. Not as well in Science. I'm happy with maths. History was good. Japanese pretty good... and well eco I screwed it up I didn't finish. I'm probably going to fail my Eco paper.
There goes my honours prize this year.
But still, exams are finished!
Fucking Kim Jung Il.
He deserves to be burnt in hell, forever and forever.
I feel sorry for those korean people, their country is a shithole because of their shithole leader. I can't believe I'm sitting in front of a computer which can probably feed a family for a month if they sold one. Yet, there's nothing I can do.
The Sleeping Tragedy
Once upon a time
In a far, far away place
A beauty waited while
Sleeping in deep grace
Not for a prince
Like your sleeping beauty
I tell you the untold tale
Of the sleeping tragedy
With thorn-tainted gates
Vines that drooped
Behind the fiery guarded gates
In high sky a restless dragon looped
Happy ending is such a good song...
It's so touching...
What is loving a person? How do I even love someone? I'm so confused about myself right now.
Hah, I should stop thinking too much. Ignorance is good. What I don't know can't hurt me.
Isn't it amazing we can be frustrated simply over a lost pencil but also a dead close person too?
Ain't it interesting someone can be lonely in a vibrant party?
Or just weird that the usual things happen but we feel different about it?
Sometimes something is just missing I think... when a life may seem perfect and one is content... something else seems out of place. They want more.
I don't really know aye... maybe I'm just too tired. Things always seem better with a good night sleep, which is why maybe I shouldn't be writing this right now.
Scared of sleeping
Afraid of nightmares
Jaded of staying awake
Tired of being heartbroken
Dreams are shattered
Doves scavenge upon the dead
Someone tells someone to stop loving
They have their happily ever after
This love is only a reflection in the water
Disturbed by scarring winds
Sprinkled with fallen leaves
I touch it and feel right through
This false fantasy
Is it bad to cry and feel sad?
Got fucking wasted on Saturday night. First time I got this wasted from booze. WTF. Well I'm only 15 I managed to get booze from some liquor store (Coz I took old)... went out at 2am with friends in city and got fucking stoned. I dont remember half of it... just remembered I felt so shit.
Hory fuk. I'm so not doing that agen... at least for a little while.