First week of school this year was fine. I have some very nice (and 'bad') teachers and classmates this year but I still longed for my science teacher last year and a few fellow classmates that we could enjoy our classes together. Of course I still see them around at school, but being in the same class kind of sustains that relationship, because I can already feel some friendships distancing and new ones forming.
So yeah, this is the second day of Year 10. Today I got quite a few of my friend's numbers since I got my first cellphone last holiday.
Neways, I also had my first graphics lesson in my life. It was SO fun. We drew straight lines for the whole period... what a amazing learning experience. -_-;;
Then I had my first science lesson this year... we got a spaztic science teacher this year. Unlike Miss Beard last year who was a strict but nice and understanding teacher... this year we got a teacher that gives out detentions like crazy. (At least she's not as as bad as my jap teacher last year, who always call his students idiots and is extremely biased).
Okay, so today was the first day of school. Before all that I was in Taiwan celebrating a great Chinese New Year with my extended family and cousins. Apparently I have 13 cousins (plus 2 siblings would make 15 children/adults. Including their parents would make over 20), and a lot of them turned up... so it's a pretty crazy time. (Lol, unlike last year which only like 3 of them were there [School started early last year so I couldn't go]). Apparently over half of them came to our house after we finished the "traditional" stuff and dinner at my gramp's place. We played pool and table tennis and sang with the karaoke machine and stuff. Then we watched a movie (Freaky Friday - even though I've seen it like three times already) and played until 4 in the morning. However, my brother was alone playing computer downstairs. Gosh, it's such a rare occasion that the entire family can get together and he had to devote his fucking time playing a computer game. Damn him.
Went to Tai Jhong this morning by train, caught up with Julie at this department store and uh yeah. We saw this Japanese horror movie that doesn't seem to have a English name. It was more disturbing than frightening. There was this scene which this couple was drinking each other's blood because they haven't had food for ages. Urgh...
Neways after that we had lunch, wandered around and shopped around, talked and stuff. Apparently, we got into the subject of talking about actors and singers and I was totally on about William Moseley's farking secsiness (Okay, I just can't get over him). Julie doesn't think he's that good looking, bah. The thing is, I still don't think she figured I'm gay... even after telling her about me writing a gay love story for my holiday homework, the continous mentioning of guy actors, me looking at the 'queer as folk', 'rent' and 'a home at the end of the world' soundtrack, and uh, just stuff like wanting to watch Brokeback Mountain... Hmm, I think she took it as my attempt to kind of generate discussion and "flirt" with her. I could tell her straight forwardly that I'm gay, but I doesn't exactly want her to know yet - instead, just have an idea.
Greetings fellow Oasians, I have officialy returned from Tao-Yuan after two days (Yas, that must have been a very long time =\)
So um, I'd just think of this as a recount of when I did there. So uh, two days ago my sister and I took the train up to Tao Yuan (2.5 hours) and stayed at Gillians house. Gillian and Elena both came back to Taiwan and both lives in Tao Yuan so we went out to these deparment stores together (Idee, FE21, Tonlin) and uh.. these other shops and we ... shopped (of course). We all bought something each for Gillian as her early birthday present this year. (She'll have nothing this November xD). Apparently, I bought a lot of stuff myself too (seven pieces of clothing). I think I spend too much nowadays.
Harlo everybody again, uh well... still two to three more weeks before returning to NZ. My dad got a pool table and we've been playing recently. I'm getting a lot better except I still can't seem to position the "stick" properly.
Lol, also Arthur, Kevin and I were like playing a prank on this girl called Amy Yao. Apparently, we invited her to a conversation and I pretended to be Arthur's girlfriend. It got rather stupid as my acting skills are really poor. Then after she left the conversation I started to creep her out kinda by asking her all these "personal" questions. It was funny. xD
Okido~ Um... Yeah, pretty much what the title says. I'm back to Tou Lio after staying at my Aunt's place to see this Ice Skating (Holiday On Ice) show.
On Saturday, before we went and saw the show... we ate at this restuarant that was "western-styled", like, it created a cowboy atmosphere and stuff. Every one of those waiters and waiteresses have to wear these cowboy outfits. Meh, and then this REALLY hawt looking waiter was serving our table. I mean, holy hell.. I can't keep my eyes off him afraid that he'll disappear. His tight ass is defined thru the tight jeans(?). And he's got the nicest smile, hair and uh.. everything. Well, actually I don't know why... but then I suddenly have this thought that all these guys I find attractive, will most likely... never be able to repay the same sort of affection I have for them. Again this cold feeling rushed thru me once more. I had no idea how to put a name to this feeling... I duno, I felt very sad right there on the spot. I have no mood for the food, and uh anything else. I ate little, which was something I never do unless I'm sick. Everyone realised I wasn't being myself. I kept my cap low across my face, and swatted tiny tears that appeared at the edge of my eyes. In the end when I think I'm going to have some kind of breakdown I had to excuse myself to go to the toilet. Everybody stared at me leave. I could hear my Aunt say to my dad "I think you should really find out what's wrong". At the same time I can see my sister get up saying she also needs to use the toilet. Half way there, my sis asked me what's wrong... It wasn't the nicest of me to respond to her by saying "nothing" but I can't hold myself together much longer. I went into the cubicle, and stayed there. Hell, I had no idea how long I stayed there for. I have so many of these memeories and thoughts that just bombarded me. Soon my dad even came to the toilet to ask me if I'm alright. I suppose my family does love me, but again these thoughts gushed though my head again telling me the person I present to them which they love isn't my real self. And all this other shit.
Harlo everybody. It's been a while since I posted two jounrnal entries on the same week.
It's late, and dad isn't in a very good mood since he's worked until now and just got home... so I'll just keep everything compacted.
Okido, I finally got my eye shadow! *Tap dances around the room* I was very disappointed that I couldn't get the colour I wanted, which was light purple and black. I happened to get a set of light blue, navy and grey. I had to buy it myself which costed $260 NT (no idea how to convert to US currency, but it's about NZ$11). I decided not to use much of it yet... and only use it on occasion. Since, if I used it now... I'd only be showing it to randoms on the street that I will only probably see once in my lifetime, and also only my dad, sister, and brother which totally disapproves of it from the start. That would be pointless and a waste.
Okay, about to write what happened recently.
Well, haven't done much at all to write about lol. My dad got three speeding tickets this month. You might think it's funny, but it's rather scary too. Wow, he even shows off his speeding tickets. *sigh*
Got Sims 2, quite an awesome game. However, I have to run it on my computer in NZ. (I think I mentioned this last time)
Oh, and I asked my dad for eye shadow. His initial response was that he thought I was joking. He said (all dialogue translated from mandarin) "Hah, do you want black or pink eye shadow?". Well, I actually answered him... I replied "Wow, you serious? I love black eye shadow, I was planning on getting black, but pink could look quite good too. It wouldn't hurt to get both and use them at the same time". After that he froze like he was stuck in a freezer for a extended period of time (maybe not that bad, it was a hot day actually, but you get my drift). He was rather angry and disappointed. He kept saying all the negative stuff about it, and saying I could have adopted the 'culture' of the Western world... but he told me not to go "off course" and do stuff like this that would make me look wierd. Then I persisted I wouldn't mind how others might respond. He said he totally opposes it, but I can get it with my own money. He said it with such confidence because he thought I would never use it again after knowing the "bad" public attention it would create for me.
Well, just telling everyone I'm fine and great. Uh what did I do in the past week. Oh, we went to this motel place in the mountains... the place is beautiful. It even has private hot spring rooms. The atmosphere and everything is great.
Well, some other usual stuff happened.
I came out to my sister, although I didn't think she caught on to it. What happened was she was reading a email from Tina which reads "It would be funni if Max was bisexual... and had a crush on a guy". Well, so after she replied the email I told her I had to tell her something. Then she thought that I'm going to tell her is that I have a crush on her. (I mean wtfux? She thinks I have a crush on my her (my own sister)? OmGz that's just disturbing and sigusting). Well, then I had to come out to her otherwise she'll live her life thinking that I am trying to tell her something which she believes as 'me having a crush on her.'
Hey everybody, I'm able to write a quick update right now since I got some spare time. Only my dad isn't home, in fact my brother is sitting right beside me playing Starcraft right now.
Neways, I'm going to keep everything compacted. My flight was delayed by two hours. It was delayed because the staff at the airport is running a fire emergecny drill (we were all evacuated). And there was also a technical problem with our plane so we had to wait till it got fixed and waited for the control tower to assign a new path for take off.
Dear Diary (14/12/05, I just know it didn't rain)
Okay, flight to Taiwan is tomorrow! I only started (and finished) packing today. Man, I'll be in Taiwan for six long weeks. I won't be allowed to go on my computer as often/or at night... and sometimes I will lack privacy or internet connection. All this means that my daily journal entries that I have been writing from the first day I found and signed up on Oasis will eventually come to a halt. I might manage to sneak on oasis and make a few posts if no one is paying attention to me or my dad allows me stay home alone (he usually wants me to go to his office). However, I won't have the time to do hour-long journal entries. This I find very depressing. I might make a recount of what happened every week... so it might be a weekly diary entry. If even that's not possible... I will keep note on what I did and make a full entry when I return to New Zealand. Also, when I return to NZ, school will have started... I will be busy, so I guess I can only do an entry when I have time (meaning about two entries per week, or making entries extremely short).
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