It is cruel when there is no hate
When love fades there is no catharsis
Just finished a stupidly long essay on the european sovereign debt crisis.
Talked to the ex boyfriend
We both cried
It really is the distance
I'm still seeing him in December though
Running for a position on our debating society's exec tomorrow
Addicted to german pop
Rediscovered my interest in Chinese music
Realised how much Chinese I've forgotten
For practice -
I've started writing Chinese journals on another website
In the head:
- love songs
In my heart:
and nothing else.
Sag mir was ist bloß um uns geschehn
Du scheinst mir auf einmal völlig fremd zu sein
Warum geht’s mir nich mehr gut
Wenn ich in deinen Armen liege
Es ist egal geworden was mit uns passiert
Wo willst du hin, ich kann dich kaum noch sehn
Unsere Eitelkeit stellt sich uns in den Weg
Wollten wir nicht alles wagen, ham wir uns vielleicht verraten
Ich hab geglaubt wir könnten echt alles ertragen.
Und jetzt wird es still um uns
Denn wir stehn hier im Regen
haben uns nichts mehr zu geben
Und es ist besser wenn du gehst
Denn es ist Zeit
The End. 03.10.11.
And it breaks my heart.
My computer's broken, and I kind of need it to study. It freezes after five minutes unless I start it up in safe mode. Any ideas? I'm thinking it's probably one the drivers...
I sleep too much and too late. They are both problems in that it's not that I can't get enough sleep, but that I can't get enough stuff done because I'm always tired. I'm thinking maybe I should force myself to go to bed at like say eleven, but then I always end up lying there until like 2 or 3 anyway.
Need to find more students to tutor. Need $$$.
Just deactivated my Facebook. Felt great.
Law ball is on tonight. I didn't go. I didn't see the point. It just means another hungover weekend and stressing out afterwards. Trying really hard not to leave right now and go to the after ball...
Soundcheck was insane. I was right up at the front. My neck is sore.
I had to get up at seven to watch stupid high school kids debate today. How sad is my life? On a saturday. At least I got paid a hundred bucks for it.
Just kind of realised my parents still don't know I'm gay. In so much denial right now.
We tried to introduce a gay rights officer at my college, but it failed by twenty votes. I kind of took it personally, because I know I could've easily got twenty people to vote for it. Oh well, doesn't really matter.
I need to stop using other work as procrastination.
Boyfriend. Skyped him today. Long distance is hard. I always told myself I wouldn't do it because it's stupid and pointless. I wouldn't say it's that, but it's just frustrating. He's coming back in December (to visit), I guess I could wait till then.
Silbermond is a good german band.
Just got tickets to magnetic man and Katy b on Thursday!
Omg I'm crazy I really should be studying.
Title: students march on police station
I was there.
Obviously the government-leaning newspaper didn't cast us in a very good light. You can tell by looking at the contrast between the first and the last sentence (humorising/mocking to begin with, then the actual point at the end)
Also, the numbers were horrendously under reported. 60? More like 300. We probably had over 500-1000 initially at the rally before the sit-in.
In other news (how appropriate):
So I made a team and am officially representing my university at the Worlds University Debating Championships (WUDC) this coming December. The uni is giving me about $1000 for the trip.
I'm such a nerd.
First it's almost 4.30 and I haven't slept yet. I've been getting terrible sleep lately. I might have insomnia I don't know. I'm just so stressed these days.
So much to study. Thinking bout it actually makes me sick.
The ewe has become especially circumspect. What she once consecrated has now been scotched by the cabals who have vilified the once ebullient creature.
Her pliant nature, his impermanence.
Sometimes I feel like a failure. I just got a grade back from law and it was terrible. I have this gut wrenching feeling like I should not even be doing law. Like I will never ever find a good job, destined to filing stupid papers and a low salary. And I try and rationalise my way out out it. Like hey, at least I got into law school! Or hey at least my other grades are good. But fuck this really was a punch in the face.