tonight was a performing arts night at my old school, great catch up with the old gang. ran into heaps of ppl i havent seen in ages. oh and i've got a crush on one of my friends from school... yr 11... bi... the sweetest kid ever. not my usual type, but he's got the warmest smile and gentle eyes. and a razor sharp wit. he's so cute.
guess im not the only person here who cant seem to express themselves... electricity beat me too it lol
University life sure isnt all it's cracked up to be. So many assignments, assholes galore, horrible lecturers... it's just like school but more freedom and no uniform. and that isn't a blessing in disguise, sometimes its easier not having to think about what you'll where every day!
at butter beats in the valley i bought the clockwork orange soundtrack for $10 and $5 for the original broadway recording of dreamgirls. the dude had a smirk at dreamgirls, but we'd talked about john waters so it was cool. really friendly guy, i always end up chatting with staff down in the valley :P
Attention all Australians: is Travis on Big Brother 08 gay or not?
the mighty boosh has entered my life... and i've fallen in love with vince noir.
i reckon i might go either way once i'm eighteen.. either settle down with kind life partner, or become a root rat with a million STIs. depends how that first night goes really, doesnt it?
"With the government looking at changing some of the same sex laws, perhaps its time for the political correctness police to start listening to noe of the silent majority instead of always taking the side of the vocal minority.
the dictionary defines the word "gay" as adjective; light-hearted, sportive, mirthful, cheery.
i'm spending too much time with one of my friends, im getting sick of him. but i dont know how to say no, and he's the only one who makes the effort to see me. it sucks. i feel like i have friends, but none who truly have my back. they never make time to see me. i have a couple of people who i go out of my way to spend time with, but its never reciprocated, u know?
...sucks ass. i dont think i've every been so weirded out by what my life is shaping up to be. everything is so strange and out of whack, i feel like augusten in running with scissors, where im standing still but everything else is spinning out around me.
jack, the winner of so you think you can dance australia, that is. he's a cute little monkey, me love him love time! dancing is just sexy. he body moves in the most beautiful way... i love it.
so thats all thats going on in my life atm... lusting over a boy ive never met off the tv. im so lame.
im over everything. im flat, except for my uni work. that's interesting.
so today was alright. im over the embarrassment of yesterday. today i nearly ran into A though. i was in the cafeteria today with some friends, and i spotted A's best friend on the mezzanine above us. so we make eye contact, she gives a wave and comes done. we talked a bit away from everyone else. she's really nice, i was friends with her before i met him - by an hour, but still.
i am so embarrassed, today my student mentor at uni got an eyeful of what porn i've been searching for on my laptop!
that was part of a line i DIDN'T use today in my performance piece. we did a frame about fear, which led to sexual abuse as the root of it. in one part, our heroine is accosted by myself and a fellow bully. we say nasty things and push her and abuse her even more. at one point i was going to say, "Shut your legs, I can still smell your dad". its horrible, but in the context it could have worked.
yep... left another essay to the last minute. i have the whole of tomorrow to write the WHOLE of my dramatic form essay. damn i'm stupid. had 3 weeks to do so. i'll be ok tho, im not worried. i always get it done. but FUCK im an idiot!
- i'm still writing an essay due 5pm today
- im involved in a plan to get this straight guy drunk and hook up with him for our amusement
- i have many empty water bottles laying around my room
- when i trim my pubes, its like landscaping. i seriously just leave it grow wild, then get rid of 57% of it
- i pretend to like some of my friends, but i don't
- i miss sucking cock. it's fun.