If you have been reading my entries you will know that a girl added me on MSN. Well, it turns out that she is a really nice person. Just with a few things to work through. I've been listening to her and trying to help. It feels really good! Do any of you have something that makes you feel great? What is it?
Wow. That was soo strange! I was on MSN and someone added me. She started to talk to me and said that her name was Ashley. She said that her, Sam (1 of best friends) and I had been a group in elementary school. This is not good, I thought. I could not remember any Ashley. At anytime. Apparently it's true though. The creepy part is is that she remembers all about me, my name, my brother's name, my PHONE NUMBER! So I got off and called Sam. She confermed that this was true, we had known an Ashley. I mean, what the hell! HOw could I not recall any of this! I know that my memory isn't great but I should be able to remember this! I think that's it.
Soo. I came out to another one of my friends yesterday. This one wasn't planned so it was soo much more fun. We were sitting there in class (last day of school so no-one was there) when she starts asking me questons...
"Who do you like?"
"Is he in this school?"
(I had decided to just go along with the whole 'guy' thing)
"Is he in one of your classes?"
"One of mine?"
So. I had a Talk with mum yesterday. I was out shopping with her yesterday and I didn't suspect anything. She lured me into it with an offer of french fries. While we were eating she said that she had to talk to me. And she did. Right there in public. She started out with "Since you revealed your sexual orientation to me..." Oh God! People all around me were staring at us. Then she went into this long schpiel about it.
Ok. I was on the bus on the way home today when I heard someone say "lesbian" from the back of the bus. They are very obnoxious back there so I figured that it would be something mean. I was right. I started listening and heard about a fantasy prostitution service. They were going on and on about this. Even setting up days and deals and stuff like that. The whole time they were laughing like this was the funniest thing that they had ever heard.
I think that my brain is going to burst! I just can't stop thinking of girls. All day! It's driving me crazy. Oh and I found out that this girl that I used to have a crush on ran away from home. In november. Because of her parents. She has been living with her grandparents and can't see her little sibs. Everytime that I think about this I hurt. But I can't stop. Any ideas?
Hi! I'm finally back from NY. It feels sooo good to be home again. So. I had a great time but I really don't see how people can live there. No offense if you do, I'm just not used to it. But I did love the acceptance thing. I found it so great that people could be themselves no matter what that was. I saw people ranging from Navy officers to business men to teenagers in miniskirts and everyone in between.
So, I go to a catholic high school. Yup. That's right, catholic. Recently I have been realising just how messed upt they think we are. I do not get it! I suppose that it wouldn't be so bad if the teachers stood up and said something when some of the kids are being really horrible but they don't. Except for one of them. I simply do not know how much longer I can stand being in that environment. Just think how terrible it will be in Religion class when they try to teach us that homosexuality is a SIN, not just a sin, like telling a lie is a sin but a SIN like killing somebody is a SIN.
So, I told my best friends a few weeks ago that I was bi and they seemed to take it amazingly well. But. Now one of them isn't really talking to me anymore and has made some odd and slightly offensive comments about other lesbian couples at school. What am I supposed to do? I don't feel like I can just give up on her because she's been my best friend for 11 years. Maybe I should talk to her. Oh, and I also like a girl in my gym class.
my pet is sick. i need someone to hold me, but that will never happen. so i sit here with him wrapped up in my arms, crying. it'll all be over soon, one way or the other.
Today I feel very old. I have no idea why but I feel like I'm about 40 instead of 14. Hmmm. I wonder if I'll feel right when I'm older? Oh well. It's not really a problem except that it sort of isolates me from people my own age. Does anyone out there feel like me?
I just had the MOST amazing experience! I really needed to tell someone and I decided on my mum. So I just walked up to her and asked if she would mind if I brought home a girlfriend sometime. She asked if I was interested in anyone and I said no, but it was a possibility. She asked if I knew that some of her best friends are lesbians. I said that yes, I knew but I'm not, I'm bisexual. Then she said the most astonishing thing, "I think that that's really cool because it shows me that you like the person for themself, not for their parts." WOW! That absolutely floored me! I couldn't feel my legs for 5 minutes but I think that it was all worth it.