I am not sure if I have been happier lately or just busier.This summer has definitly been a lot more enjoyable than any other summer.I went on holidays for a month to the other side of the world,and since getting back,just over a month ago I have barely had one day where I had nothing to do or nobody to hang out with.
I am insanely attracted to my friends sister.There I said it!Honestly she is just beautiful,smart,nice,funny girl.I have known my friend about 5 years and so know this girl the same length of time.But I don't really see her very often.I remember the first time I was introduced to her.All I could think was wow this girl is hot!!
Quite hungover today I am.But it was an awesome night!!I've been having a great time the past while.Long may it continue.Good times people good times.
Did you ever just feel really strange and not like yourself??I have been feeling like that this week.I must admit I have had to question my sanity.
Grr.. I am in a very cranky mood today.I don't even know why!It's my day off work,but I haven't really known what to do with myself.I slept in later than I intended.But then I had nothing planned anyways.So I got up had a bath,got dressed,practiced guitar/watched tv.
I can't stop listening to that song "I don't want to talk about it".I don't know why.I found it on youtube the other night and have had it stuck in my head ever since.
Well it has been about a month since I've wrote a journal entry or even been on here infact.I travelled to Australia for the month and it wasn't really possible for me to come on here for various reasons.It was a good time though to just take a break from everything I usually do.It was really a month where I could freeze out everyone in my life, and take some time and space for just me and sorting
Well holy fuckballs people I actually passed my exams.I made a journal a few weeks ago where I was having a mad freak out because they were all pretty much falling apart or so I thought anyways.So yay! Summer continues to be not so bad!
This will probably be the last journal I write before going on holidays for a month.Woo'hoo!!Though I don't leave for another four days,so I might have something significant to write about before then.Though to be fair I don't really have that much significant stuff to write about right now.Just home alone with some period pain and decided to come online.
I've just been reading back over my old journal entries from the past two years.It is good to be able to look back over where I was and where I am now.The last journal I made I must admit was on a pretty low note,but I feel a lot better today.My new mantra/motto,whatever you want to call it,is going to be that life is to be enjoyed.After all we should be here for a good time since we aren't here f
I was about to write a journal about how messed-up,confused,closeted, and self-loathing I am.But I realised I have probably wrote that journal before.I somehow seem to keep re-writing it.I know I need change,I have said it before.But right now I just don't even know who or what I want to change.
I feel sad today.It's that sadness that usually lurks around but on busy days I can ignore it and push it away for a while.Well today wasn't a busy day.It's that sad feeling of I wish I didn't make my life the way it is now.I wish I had more friends,I wish I was out of the closet,I wish I had a girlfriend,I wish I didn't regret so many of the choices I have made mostly in the past five years.
Sure I am on a crazy role of jounaling this week.My last journal hasn't even left the front page and here I am writing another!How unlike me.I'm just feeling the need to get it all down this week I think.So here I go with my overanalyzing of the last couple of days...
Well the dreaded examinations have finally ended.They actually didn't go as badly this week as last week's set.So I am hoping to have redeemed myself a little.I should be feeling relieved and happy.But I just kind of feel empty and sad.
Ok, so I have this friend who I think I probably mentioned ages ago, who has a crush on me.To give a brief background-we made friends at the start if this college year,it quickly emerged he wanted to be more than just friends.I told him I was flattered but no.We continued to be friends.For a while I thought he was over it, but I started to get the feeling he actually hadn't, which eventually led t