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life sucks

my life sucks, today this bitch girl that had a sort of fight with a long tim ago because her bf nearly left her to be with me :P(in her face ) any way to goes to my campus now and she was with this whole bunch of ppl, as i walked by she called out goth, this wasnt the first time someone called me that been called satanist a number of times to...anyway ust coz i dress in dark clothing doesnt mean that i am, i hate the fact that they assume these things bout me...that i have no feelings, sometimes on campus i ust walk through hall waysf bulidings ust to avoid ppl staring and stupid comments...i thort wen i left high scholl things would be different ....i guess not...

U're a journalist & u're in Iraq about to watch 20 ppl die cold blood right in front of u. U....

can save 19 of them and kill one URSELF
31% (9 votes)
let all of them die and make the story of ur life
21% (6 votes)
kill the soldiers and die famously :P
17% (5 votes)
kill urself
7% (2 votes)
other..leave comment..
24% (7 votes)
Total votes: 29
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Suicide - death of my misery.

The darkness inside overwhelming,
i came this far with no one helping,
i stand alone now,
with crossroads before me,
which path shall i take,
i find strength deep with in me,
as forgetting my days, is my only escape.

i stand alone now,
with crossroads before me,
one step, and i'm falling eternally,
i am so alone, i wander where i am,
rains start to pour down on me,
washing away my misery,
adding to the darkness
a little bit of mystery,
i hold on to my heart,
trying not to give in to insanity,
though i'm so alone,
i see myself falling eternally,
coldness hits my face,
feel it entering my darkest place,

i'm standing alone, i know where i am
one more step,
i'm on the edge,
arms spread wide,
ready to fly,
i see ur evil face,
as i lean forward in to an empty space,
down city road, on my darkest day,
closed eyes as i collide,
thats when my misery died.

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You

what is this on my face,
is it blood or tears that i taste,
it could be both!

i tremble with pain,
as i watch u walk away in vain,
with innocent eyes,
questioning "why!"
did i really deserve this,
or in doing this u find bliss,
it could be both!

why? i ask,
he turns around with an evil mask,
"coz u were never meant to be here,
do u understand that, my dear"
"is that really my fault?"

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its hard to watch the person u like be with another...

its hard to watch the person u like be with another, its even harder to watch the person u like be with another even though they know how u feel...yet they still come to u for advise about their relationship, what do i do?..be a fren and and give encouragement putting my feelings aside, or put my feelings first...will that be selfish of me:/

but i guess when u see these things happen right in front of u, and theres nothing u can do anymore, i'm just gonna have to learn to close my eyes sometimes:/

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Music!

Breaking the silence,
Vibrations in the mind,
Moving in a trance,
Heart and soul bind,

love may be lost,
icicles defrost,
within, soft voices die,
and dead roses lie,
when time freezes,
and life siezes,
whenst everythings gone,
Music itself shall slumber on!

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I'm just a stranger glancing...

Oh! what a lovely face that mind has built!
both hair and eyes as dark as death,
when u stride by,
even the boldest hold their breath,
lips so wonderous not even the fairest can deny,
spoken words from thy heart
and the heavens shall cry,
thy fashion'd body i seek ever more,
tis'nothing that i've felt before.

I'm just a stranger glancing,
with knees weak and faltering,
i was never forgot,
he just knew me not.

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more blab

ok so i'm ready to go and try an sleep yet, though i have to have work 2moro, have so many thorts running around in my head dont really know what to do anyway, just feel like typing something in here so blah blah blah :P

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blab

so i'm just sittin here downloadin music, and chating..was really happy and hyped earlier but then this one fren just started asking questions bout my past, that just got me really down...i really dont know why i let ppl do this to me, let them control my moods.. my signature - if ure happiness really depends on what someone else thinks of u then i guess u really do have a problem...i always thort i wasnt one of those ppl, guess i was wrong.

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Fight For A Nation

A metrical composition,
being an addition,
in a verbal submission,
towards world domination,
to avoid annihilation,
to gain a feeling of sensation,
in the act of relocation,
a gather a formation,
against the brotherhood starvation,
to be a united blood nation!

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today :P

BLEH!!!!!:( I HATE COLD DAYS, AND KFM IS PLAYING KAK F@#*ING MUSIC, JUST WISH THEY WOULD TURN THE THING OFF, I HAVE A MAJOR COLD THAT JUST WONT GO AWAY, LOADED WITH WORK GOT SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS I CANT EVEN GO FOR THE PIMP N HO'S PARTY, AND I WAS GONNA DRESS AS A PIMP!!!;( MY BOYFRIEND IS COMING 2MORO..YAY ATLEAST I GOT SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO AFTER ALL THOSE FONE CONVERSATIONS CANT WAIT TO JUMP ON THE REAL THING :P

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path to you (COMMENTS PLZ!!!)

(tell what u think of this plz... got my inspiration from W. Wordsworth :))

Today deep thoughts resolve with me,
Oh hunter, chaste and fair,
tis not impossible thy shall command my heart and me,
I wish only that u dare!
Do the best that u may,
Set a thousand gaurds upon me,
But i will soon find out my way,
Where rosy pleasures leads,
Where not even misery treads,
Away from u, my dear

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sleepless >

Soft murmurs that pass by,
as between white sheets i leisurely lie,
my eyes shut tightly
but still i lie
sleepless;

Morning strikes with the cuckoo's cry,
sadened i could not take thee, sleepless,
for a thousand more nights, sleepless, i shall lie,
until a voice from an angel above
in all her sweetness, heart full of love,
she trembles, she weeps, now, she speaks,
"rest now, thou art weary and worn!"

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MoM

undeniable
that i was never meant to be here
unbelievable
how much of myself i fight everyday
unpredictable
when next i'll be with u

understandable
how i can be apart of u
how we can be so similar
so familiar
though ive never really known u

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Insomniac

tired of keeping it all inside
no one listens
invisible
sleeples nights
nightmares
ur face
screams
awake
sweating, tears, yearning, longing, ache, craving

stop!!!!
think, control??
no
darkness
pain, loath, fear
razor
cut
bleed
ahh!!!
relief

a stimulation
a realization
to know
i'm not just the livingdead :/

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