How do I? Even begin to do this. Alright. My name is Jay. Some people would dispute that. I'm a teenage transdude with a lot of opinions about nearly everything. The Internet is my homeland, and I'm surprisingly capable of maintaining friendships.
I'm intensely into science of all sorts, especially medical science (gENETICS??? NEURO!?!?!?!). My goal is to someday become a neurosurgeon, because I find consciousness beautiful, I want to help people, and I want to stick my hands into people's skulls.
We had to put my oldest cat, Buddy, to sleep today. In the past few weeks he's stopped eating and I've had to watch him slowly wither away into a skeleton. We took him to the vet and we were told it was a thyroid problem, but the medication prescribed for thyroid issues didn't restore his appetite like it should have. I think it was something more than that. He got to a point where he couldn't even get up and walk he was so weak.
Hello everyone! c: long time no post. I started junior year this past Tuesday. I am very happy with all of my classes. I will be trying out for dance team very soon. I hope to make Varsity with the big girls. I am in choir for the time being.
The following story is based on a sleep-dep-induced hallucination of mine that brought on a small epiphany about the nature of life. It may contain triggers, as it involves self-mutilation. Please give your opinion if you read it and care to do so, I'd be interested in the criticism.
I told my friend Audrey over email that I'm bi. She was really nice about it, which I expected. She told me she's bi, which I didn't expect. I'm happy, she's happy, we're good friends. So...yeah. Don't know what else to say.
It reminded me of high school, so I changed it.
A couple weeks ago, I made a post about how my sister almost ruined my mom's relationship, but I deleted it because it was really angry and also because my mom and her boyfriend made up. To condense the story, he's been in North Carolina for his job, and he and my mom want to live there permanently, so they have been looking at houses there together. My mom has been saying for months now that she was going to move there as soon as our house sold. But now, just to appease my sister, she's going to postpone it a year. (She won't just leave my sister with my dad because she thinks he has too much on his plate with his fiancee's two really obnoxious kids.)
I'm new to drag really, and I've been using really cheap makeup, so its hard to look TOO good, but here!
I'm improving every day. Gotta work more on eyeliner and eyeshadow and blending and eyebrows, but I've basically got lips and contouring down.
Also needing a new wig because mine is cheap ;_;
On Tuesday I arrived a little late to school at night, I couldn't find my bets friend until someone told me that he was totally drunk in my classroom, I went to visit him and he was laying on the ground, when I got into the classroom he got up and gave me a huge hug and told me that loved me a lot, after that he told me how he got drunk and had the brilliant idea to sneak out of school and visit some friend that lives near my school, he made me jump some fence and I had to hold his hand so he wouldn't go sprinting and in some moments I had to grab him by the waist, at my friends house he got w
I've decided I will try and write here more regularly again. I found that writing in the past has really helped me process my thoughts - as well as finding it particularly useful for 'remembering' what has happened in my life. Writing here will largely be for the purposes of documentation; comment if you wish - I was reading through my journals and I have found some advice rather useful.
A number of things have happened over the past few months. I guess just two things to update before I go to bed - it's almost 4.00am
Well this is my first time on here and its only been two days since I came out to my mom. I told her and she acted so calm that i cried. I figured out that I was transgender two years ago and it took a LONG time to accept who I am. Well today I told my crush that I'm transgender and she took it so well. She's the only friend that knows that I'm a trans. Well thats it so message me!
*wrote this with my best friend.
Underground railroad tracks run
through this cowboy town and
your vulnerable heart,
splitting in half,
makes you groan whenever
I bury my face in your neck
and unbutton your shirt,
tracing circles around
your trans-Atlantic hipbones.
Caleb, you are splayed;
sometimes here with me,
other times, nowhere in
the foreseeable future of
our baseball swimming hole days,
and loving you isn't easy
or sweet like condensed milk
and holiday music playing
in a fireplace-lit room.
Like a ghost with vindictive fingers,
A random thought: formal events like proms and whatever else are gonna be a challenge. Because I'm not feminine enough to feel comfortable in a dress, but I'm not butchy enough to feel comfortable in a tux. So what do? What the hell am I gonna wear to my own wedding someday?
Androgyny sucks sometimes.
I have been seeing someone. I do not think he is the one; but I wish he were.
Its been a long time hasn't it?.
well a quick recap i guess. judging by the last Journal as the time i left.
-there was a argument again between me and mum that still continues, that if i can't find a job or get to college she'll take me back, which she can't legally do but i know she'll try.
-She lost custody of my Brother.
-i dated someone for 9 Months after everything improved.
-now im dating someone else.
-met some new friends.
-nearly died in this summers heat.
-not much else happened really.
also growing up is scary.
Hello everyone! Yes friends it is I, Chris, and I haven't returned for good, just to sum up what my life has been like this past year!
~ Family support is still going strong. Out and proud and seeing a counselor to help with my depression. I got on antidepressants and haven't relapsed in about 2 months!
~ I've become semi-tumblr famous (AKA reaching my first 1k followers and doing a giveaway and meeting people)
~ I'm kinda sorta maybe dating someone from this site that I've talked to on Tumblr a lot and yeah it's exciting <3