Well this is my first time on here and its only been two days since I came out to my mom. I told her and she acted so calm that i cried. I figured out that I was transgender two years ago and it took a LONG time to accept who I am. Well today I told my crush that I'm transgender and she took it so well. She's the only friend that knows that I'm a trans. Well thats it so message me!
*wrote this with my best friend.
Underground railroad tracks run
through this cowboy town and
your vulnerable heart,
splitting in half,
makes you groan whenever
I bury my face in your neck
and unbutton your shirt,
tracing circles around
your trans-Atlantic hipbones.
Caleb, you are splayed;
sometimes here with me,
other times, nowhere in
the foreseeable future of
our baseball swimming hole days,
and loving you isn't easy
or sweet like condensed milk
and holiday music playing
in a fireplace-lit room.
Like a ghost with vindictive fingers,
A random thought: formal events like proms and whatever else are gonna be a challenge. Because I'm not feminine enough to feel comfortable in a dress, but I'm not butchy enough to feel comfortable in a tux. So what do? What the hell am I gonna wear to my own wedding someday?
Androgyny sucks sometimes.
I have been seeing someone. I do not think he is the one; but I wish he were.
Its been a long time hasn't it?.
well a quick recap i guess. judging by the last Journal as the time i left.
-there was a argument again between me and mum that still continues, that if i can't find a job or get to college she'll take me back, which she can't legally do but i know she'll try.
-She lost custody of my Brother.
-i dated someone for 9 Months after everything improved.
-now im dating someone else.
-met some new friends.
-nearly died in this summers heat.
-not much else happened really.
also growing up is scary.
Hello everyone! Yes friends it is I, Chris, and I haven't returned for good, just to sum up what my life has been like this past year!
~ Family support is still going strong. Out and proud and seeing a counselor to help with my depression. I got on antidepressants and haven't relapsed in about 2 months!
~ I've become semi-tumblr famous (AKA reaching my first 1k followers and doing a giveaway and meeting people)
~ I'm kinda sorta maybe dating someone from this site that I've talked to on Tumblr a lot and yeah it's exciting <3
So, I haven't been here in over a month. Part of it was the three very busy weeks at Shakespeare camp, and the other part was that... I don't know, I've just been withdrawing from almost everything lately. Anyways...
Shakespeare camp was awesome! I got along really well with everyone, and it was very appreciative environment. All the nerdy stuff I love to talk about, they loved to talk about too. I wish it had lasted longer!
I think it'll be kinda confusing and it's because my mind is rushing and can't stop thinking so here goes the crap:
Hey guys! I haven't been on here in a while, since I've been kind of overwhelmed by my acting school. I spend 8 hours there and 2 hours on the bus every day, so I pretty much just eat hashbrowns & go to bed when I get home. But some stuff has been going on that's been putting me on edge, so I figure it's about time I come back for a visit.
I havent had a need to write as I am not feeling low or down a hole I can't climb out of.
But I've realized something: I am not looking for love or anyone to be with. Such affairs are of no concern to me. And I dont care for love neither though I am still attracted to men I just dont want to be with any of the ones I've encountered. perhaps Ive yet to find him.
I had the worst start to my morning. My mom was yelling at me. That's what I woke up to...5 minutes worth of being lectured as my mom quite literally was shouting at me. See , here's the thing, I don't do this on purpose, but I don't hear my alarms go off in the morning, and so my mom was yelling at me, because she's so pissed with me about it. I'm not doing this intentionally at all.
And people wonder how I have the guts to beat myself up?
Anyway, I'm in a relationship with a girl. She's amazing <3 .
Wow its been a year since I have last used this website. I don't know what it was or why I stopped going on here, I just feel out of pace really and forgot to look back.
I'm in love. So so so in love. But, I'm having sexual curiosities that are not like me at all. All these years... through puberty and into young adulthood, I've always been convinced of my sexuality. I've never once, and still haven't, had a crush or have been emotionally attracted to that team, but wondering how it would feel sexually is happening now of all times.
So I really kind of suck at this keeping up with the journaling thing.
For a long time, I wasn't having luck with signing into Oasis, for some reason it wasn't working at all. But it's up and working now and so I figured I'd take advantage of that.
I feel badly that I haven't kept up with the journals. Part of the reason is that I feel like everyone's new and so I won't know anyone, I'll be out of that loop. But to be honest, when I was a newbie here, I used to hate when people made it sound like they suddenly were better than Oasis or something.