Momma leaves for a couple of days, and she comes back to all this scandal and controversy in the forums about people feeling unwelcome! Dear me, dear me....
So yeah. Which was all weirdness. So strange. But today was so odd.
Moments ago, while trying to explain to JB the point of view of alana and others, I was IM. I was typing at the time and couldn't react fast enough and closed the accept IM dialog box. Whoever IM'd me can feel free to IM me again now.
Dance of the lost souls
In the heat of that summers night-
passion rises gently,
silently moving about.
Feel the seduction of nirvanna.
With the warmth brings-
bliss and solitude.
Gliding along the evenings dew-
a rainbow of desire is born.
Allowing the soul to slide gently -
We don't need no education. We don't need no thought control. No dark sarcasm in the classroom. Teacher leave them kinds alone.
Melisa, of course I dont know her, but she went to the same school as I did. Shes a 4 year college student at RIT(known for deaf college) that I went breifly, commited suicide. She apparently poured gasoline on herself and made a human bonfire out of herself. The reason why is being investigated. Ive just learned that recently which is very sad.
ON a bright side, Im going to date soon. For a while I grew nervous with the dating scene just becuase all the mens goals are to get laid. Not this one, I hope. I met this dude and we instantly clicked. Hes deaf and gay and we share alot in common. So thats awesome.
Sometimes I just feel so dumb. I need to come out to the rest of my friends before the end of the school year...which is in 12 days. It would be very simple just to tell them, but I can't seem to make myself. For those who don't know, I want to tell them all because I'm going to be on a very visible Committee next year for Lesbian and Gay students, and I'd rather them find out from me than from someone or something else. Perhaps I shall start with Kat...my future quad mate. I think she might already suspect anyways... *sigh* If only I weren't such a wimp, lol. :P
so ive spent a lot of my time at work because we are short people..kinda a sucky way to spend vacation
i have my tickets to go to riverdance,the only thing is Rhue cant go, her mom hates me and refuses to let us see each other than once in a blue moon. it really ticks me off because i like her a lot and now that shes also gone from my school its like something major is missing. like eevryone has someone close that they can tell everything to and usually that kinda of person is rare,well thats part of what she was to me and its weird having that gone...
A room full of other people's old, glassware....thats what I did today...Heisey(sp)glass, to be specific....But man, if you own the right kind of Heisey, you could be rolling in money! Some of the stuff was fifteen hundred dollars!!!!!....for a bowl!
But anyway....The real reason I am writing, is because we went passed the nursing home my grandfather was in before he died. Now that wouldnt seem like such a big deal, but this is kind of different.
Ack, can't I just go away, write my novel and have the site run smoothly? Apparently not.
I don't care about the forum stuff, because that is its purpose, people debating things. Plus, if people bring up religion, hate crimes, liberal issues, crushing on straight guys, etc., etc., they are intentionally opening themselves up.
However, when a user, be they straight, bi, trans, gay, lesbian, or anything else posts something on their personal blog, it is not an opportunity for people to pick apart their words for flaws, or jokes, etc. People coming here looking for support should find it. In fact, if someone writes something that even skates the line between self-pitying or whining, I would far prefer people not respond than to say anything negative.
not that anyone cares, but im leaving. i thought i would find support here but all i'm getting is mean comments and negative remarks. thanks to the few people i have met here that have be nice to me and helpful. bye
(i dont intend on reading the comments i get on this so don't bother trying to put me down anymore)
i hate everything in my life right now. every little thing is setting me off and its killing me. but i won't bother everyone with my issues, i'll just...figure it out on my own.
So, Jen's Newsies watchin' birthday party was gobbles of fun.