(Note: I don't know if this will concern readers or not, but since I'm in China, the whole SARS thing definitely concerns me, right right O My Brothers and Droogs?)
There never seems to be enough hugs, yet there is always enough pain. Its a cycle thats vicious but so a live that it will forever continue. No matter how much good I encounter, I come across twice as much bad. I dont understand how this works.
My family is slowly falling apart. Once one problem is fixed, three more inevitably take its place. It happens over and over again. I just want to run away from it all. Every last part of it. NEVER EVER come back and NEVER EVER deal with this murderous bullshit that kills me slowly.
so i just got home from lauras house,having a 6er,pizza and video games makes my night happy. me and lauras mom spent a lot of time teasing her about talking to her studmuffin on the phone,it was crazy... her mom can become scary sometimes.
so i didnt get to see chicago *sniff* rhue's mom was ebing her usual self and didnt want her to be out more than 3 hours or some nonsense,so we went to lunch and a fabric store instead,she got a bunch of new stuff to amke her corset and skirt for draculas ball and i prorastinated decididing what to wear for that... but i did fall in love with this fuzzy hot pink fabric and plan to make a pair of pants out of it when i ahve the money to buy it...(very expensive,.00 a yard)
really can't stand humanity. Im caught somewhere between wanting to curl up under a rock in the woods and never have to see another person ever and never grow up, and wanting to grow up fast so I can adopt all the abused kids in the universe.
We could hold each other tight until forever comes
For your love is safe and warm.
And I wrap my arms around you, press my face into your hair
I see the beauty I could have.
But the days we have together are already numbered
I see you count them with despair.
And the game we play together will not help us then
The lies our bodies tell will be found out.
I wish that I could hold you til forever comes
Just a quick link to my latest pic =) It involves a jacuzzi and a face from my past. click for more ...
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Ahhh... the burn... what the hec do I do to make it better?
I just realized that the Red Hot Chilli Peppers are definantly much cooler than your mom. Just watch the "Can't Stop" video and you'll understand.
my heart has a vertical metal skewer through it... and there is a sharp metal pinwheeel spinning around it... not because of wind... there are two huge magnets on either side of my heart and they are pushing together although they are facing eachother's opposite poles... they are trying to crush my heart but they cant. they just make the pinwheel spin... the blood that drips out is unneeded, really... but its filling up all the wrong places. i can feel it in my stomach. it pours out of my eyes. i can taste it. it makes me cough.
Pick up some litter, plant a tree, stop spraying your aeresol can, do something to benefit the environment today.
I just need to scream, just to let all the anger and sadness out.
How can they treat me like this? Why do i let them get to me? Maybe they are right?
I feel like shit everyday because of them, i am afriad to go to school. some days i just can't face em. I can never let my gaurd down anymore, i can't relax anymore, not even for a second. I just really need to scream right now
my girlfriend dumped me for no apparent reason...right after our anniversary...fuck
I downloaded Vogue today.
"Beauty's where you find it, thats just where you bump and grind it"
The line that changed my life.
Me and Lee
Danceing on the Speakers at the bar
no one else but us
to the music
and when that line came
The dance move that changed our lives
hip bumping, twist with hand over our heads a 180 turn
The Kids In The Hall: Brain candy. Lee used to say "Its made from monkey cum"
How time consuming (and daunting) to jot down everything that happens in sequential order and explicit detail, but I
So folks, this is some Oasian style drama for you. I have been a little preoccupied as of late - I mean, I am writing a thesis, volunteering like a fiend, conferencing and writing potentially publishable papers - and then I met this girl... Right, so the rest of that has temporarily gone to shit. I've been distracted, ok?
h> Will you go out with me?
j> I don't know. Will your mom drive us places?