I went to Barstow, CA over the weekend to say goodbye to my brother. He's being deployed to Kuwait soon. I'm very proud of him because I know he will serve our country well. I pray that he will return safely and I am scared for him. Does anybody else have family members in the military?
A poem by da Lisa Faery:
shocking and brilliant
but painful as hell
thorns sharp and menacing
a defense system
this is me bitching and ranting.
Around October of 2002 my grandma announced that she was going to take my sister and me to Turkey. I thought that was awesome considering Turkey's rich history. So I read up on that country and began to learn about the country. Then with the whole Iraq-induced paranoia my mom and aunt (who used to work for the US State Dept.) persuaded my grandma that taking us to Turkey wasn't a great idea.
Sorry about the sudden burst of scrappy inspiration but I just spent the night at a VARY good friends house but he's straight so dem's da breaks oh well. if you like the poem tell me in your comments it's the blog called "a queer stuck in a straight world"
By Brandon Summit
my mascara is running. It must look as if i have been crying, i don't cry.
my tummy wants that warm feeling. that isn't good, not good at all.
I don't wanna go to school tomorrow, i hate school, i have to lie so much there.
i don't want to see my shrink tomorrow she fucking pisses me off.
I am so sick of SF right now, yet i really wanna go explore it.
I want it to be the weekend, i wanna see my friends...but which group, dude i have way too many groups.
HAD ENOUGH!!!!! Its amazing I haven't run away already! I am sure thats one of my next ventures....yah running away seems like the next step. I dont understand my family. I dont understand them at all and they are driving me into the furthest reaches of insanity!
Having an off day, just like every other.
I am kinda less depressed because I got to watch this awesome art movie in English. It was on realism, impressionism, and post impressionism. Watching Degas, Manet, Monet, Van Gogh, and Renoir paintings on video for an hour is soooo awesome. All the different colors, techniques, subjects, and paintings themselves ::shivers:: Amazing, utterly amazing!!!!!
One of the few happy things in my life... muah ha haa, the new CD comes out tomorrow. You should all go buy it!
Just thought I'd let you know.
I just got back from riding my bike. Not sure how many miles I went; I go for quality, not quantity. :) Man, I love spring. The warm weather, warm winds, lack of insects in the air that could be swallowed while biking, et al. Ooh, can't forget the rain and storms. Mmm....
I'm enamored with Incubus yet again (and not just for Brandon Boyd's beauty).
some random woman called me at like 7:30 A.M. but i ended up not going to school so it is all ok. this woman asked me if we were gonna go to yoge together this morning and i was so out if it i was like "sure, see ya at 8" i sorta had a crazy night, i am really too young to have crazy nights, but hey it was fun. i love skipping school, going out to breakfast in the middle of the week, it just plain rocks.
Sorry guys.. i am having a moonerism spoment. Friday was a public holiday .. it was fantastic. I slept 18 hours out of every 24 this weekend. When i wasnt asleep i was jacked up on smurf juice (dont ask.. heh) reading Neil Gaiman.
Anyway , I saw my mom this weekend for the first time in about 6 months.. she introduced me to her new boyfriend. Me and her have this understanding that she has shit taste in men. It progressed from an unspoken truth to something i will throw in her face everytime it comes up since she chose her then boyfriend soon to be ex husband over me and my brother when I was 15. I didnt see her for about 2 years, although we kept in touch telephonically.