I'm so PSYCHED! My band is playing on Saturday! Lalalala! I'm so excited! And we just had a really good practice, and we're opening with my song!
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What was an unmistakable with a first glance was looking at the same sex than he would normally do. Ashamed as he peeked at his tented jeans in the coffee shop, the male waiter walked up with a certain charm asked for any refills. It confounded him as he wondered what it supposed to mean. He gave him a questioned grunt as the waiter smirked with a satisfaction on his face. The server repeated with a giddy answer for the refill of the beer. He shook off the erotic thoughts in his head and nodded an approval for a second helping of beer.
She had a corpse under her bed..she had her fun, but now he is dead....her mama said feed the desire, her brother said throw him on the fire!
I wish it was that easy ^ lol..... I'm listening to Carnival of Souls (Rob Zombie). He is so awesome. Twisted Sister, I was listening to earlier is awesome, too!
What Happened March 12, 2003:
~Joey took both my packs of cigarettes, and my cd "The Eminem Show". I got his necklace.
Ill serve you your food
and you'll start bitching at me for forgetting to give you your frys
Ill burn myself on your coffee till my hands are raw
Ill run back and forth making the customer happy while my boss yells to go faster
Ill try to make out the impossible voices over the intercom while I spill drinks all over myself
Ill clean the tables and the little kids puke
Ill be the janiter and clean up the dirty tampons off the bathroom floors and scrub up the chicken guts stuck in the cracks
My show opens tonight and I had my first breast binding experience last night at the dress rehearsal.
TWO ace bandages and duct tape= PAINpainPAIN.
I've worn all kinds of corests so I didn't think it would be that bad. Furthermore, I'm only a 34 B so how bad could it really be?
I do have to say that even with my chest bound down, I still projected the best in the opening scene.
Meanwhile, our pianst and drummer are dating as an open lesbian couple.
Well, I did it, I came out to my mom...in the car, of all places. We'd been working on wallpapering the diningroom, but took a break to go get some milk from the store. We got in the car and she mentioned that I wanted to talk about something. After a few mumbling false starts, I managed to spit out the pre-thought out "speech" I'd come up with the day before.
There is freedom within
there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup.
There's a battle ahead
many battles are lost
But you'll never see the end of the road
while you're travelling with me.
don't dream it's over
when the world comes in
they come to build a wall between us
We know they won't win.
Now I'm towing my car
Those of the Night
~a short story by Dragon~
Hehehehehehe. I dont usually say grumble when I am not in a bad mood but it seemed appropriate for the time being. Yup yup. So uh yah, one of my friends who shall remain nameless, a friend of the Allie Monster, says she likes me. Dunno if I believe that one. Dunno if I would want it to be true. I dont know what I want to be completely honest. I am lost at this point in time. It seems to be a permanent state these days.
So far so good here. Last night I purchased a airwalker, like those thing you see on tv with that blonde dude preaching that it WORKS! Not the advertisment that caught my attention but Walking alot does work. It wasnt the tv that convinced me, i wanted a trendmil but they didnt have any for cheap so I bought that instead. Will work out 25 mins a day.
Took my mother out for a treat for lunch at Pondo. Yummy.
i have a girlfriend! yes, it is long distance. but it doesn't matter cause i love her and she loves me. she said she doesn't mind waiting, that we can make it work together.
Okay, I hope this entry doesn't get too graphic ot "too much information" for any of you, but the topic has been on my mind.
A couple of weeks ago I was talking to my friend Chris about possibly dating this guy Rick. When I mentioned that I didn't think it was going to happen (mainly because I was interested in my current boyfriend), he said that he had figured it wasn't going to happen, anyway. Wondering what sort of secret Chris knew, I asked him why he thought that.
::swoons:: if it werent for the gay thing-id marry willow. she is so amazing on buffy. and next week on angel, the preview shows her bitch fighting it out with cordelia. OMG. cannot wait. and i sure as fuck need to figure out how to combine all the nicks. kadien with finn with nate with nico with nicholas-yes, the real me. oh well. it dodn't matter. yes, dodn't. i sound like one of the designing women on purpose. oh well. i dont care if anyone knows me like i am. it doesnt matter anymore. i dont sleep right cause i have a sleep disorder. i dont eat right cause i have intestinal diseases. i dont think right anymore because ive let all of these things drag me down. why i dont just get over my shit, i dont know. and why i let those goddamn people bother me into acting all stupid. i wish i could just act like me in public, instead of acting like how i think they want me to act. like a clown of course. i would i act respectable and or smart. id be asking too much of my subconscious. fuck it. i dont need friends outside of heather, jess, jen, chrix, and lauren. the last one sometimes though. i dont think theres a week one of she or i dont try to kill the other of she or i. and you know, itd just be so easy to just do all these not nice and evil spells and just hurt everyone and amass worse karma (as if its possible). cause i can. i know i can. ive done it before. they work. so why not just go all evil? itd be fine. and easy. soooooo easy. too damn bitter all the time. i never just smile for no reason anymore. i need to remember how to smile for no reason again. its a lost art, smiling is. now remembers simple joy. and talking to aldo is always such a fucking head trip. like, i hear he talks shit about me behind my back, yet hes so overly nice to me to my face. and its not even like hes two faced, cause he does pretty much say he doesnt like me, though he doesnt act it. its like mike, only opposite. lol. then again, i act that way towards people. its sorta karmatic. but thats not fair. i act that way out of inability to act any other way. its like i cant get close to that person. its blocked out of my head. i try but i simply cant deal, no matter the effort i put forth. at least heathre gets it. she just DOESNT ANSWER HER FUCKING PHONE! and why should she? she has a life other than her best friend, as demonstrated by going away to college. see, im allowed to be selfcentered and obnoxious in my blog, because my friends dont read it. at least not the ones id write about. and i could jdsalingerstreamofconsciousness this thing for hours on end. i just get so angry. and whats with that fucker never responding to IMs? what business of his is it to disappoint me or anyone else. and ooh-my phillip ridley book just walked in the door. my cousin had it. AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE ANGEL BITCH FIGHT NEXT WEEK. HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT. willow is sooooo amazing. i wanna marry her. a lot. and over and over and over. we could share spells, although i live in this real world, so i dont have spells to destroy the first evil, or beat up gods, or create snakes out of nowhere, or for that matter, restore the soul of the soulless. which is debating that last one. ahh well. the fucker still hasnt answered me. FUCK HIM THAT CRAP ASS FAGGOT PRICK. im done now. i love being schizophonic. yeah, phonic.-nate