Oh dear... the problem... part the two....Read more:-)
Well, my father is still not speaking to me. The silent treatment is fun, no? Then my mother went on another rant about how the gay community "is lonely, they have no family, no meaningful relationships, and do lots of drugs."
Then, there was silence.
I wish I was kicked out, it's better than the crap I'm getting, but still, no regrets.
What kills me is why I *had* to come out. Was the Lesbianation thing on the computer a hint? The fact my ceiling is, and I mean this literally, wallpapered with models. The fact I've participated in Day of Silence. It feels like you're living out...and yet either they're dense or in denial. My vote is denial.
Hey, I'm Caitlin. I live in Claremont, CA which isn't too far away from Los Angeles. I won't be writing in here very much at all becuase I have a livejournal. You can check that out at http://www.livejournal.com/users/needsalife87. If you want to reach me you can e-mail me at email@example.com or my AIM screenname is needsalife87. Pretty easy to remember considering it's my name here at Oasis.
Today was totally great because we had a snow day, and I spent the majority of the day sleeping and watching MTV. Did you know that they play basically the same 10 videos all day? News to me.
Yeah, I am totally glad to have another Oasis blog, my other one got lost after Oasis crashed (sigh).
Going to visit my brother at college tomorrow, hope I have as much fun as I did visiting last weekend (I found out that I am extremely loud when I'm drunk), but I doubt it, since we are just going to pick him up.
I wrote this in my philosophy class the other day. Just pondering life and it's meaning. Dealing with my depression and such.
Caffeine, Nicotine, and Caffeine.
Black shirt, White shirt, Black shirt.
Everyday is the same.
Like the sun rising and falling.
Hotwired like my Volvo;
I've forgotten how to feel.
I've forgotten how to peel,
The layers back.
And spill my guts onto strangers.
They say strangers have a story;
...has arrived. I took the little orange card they gave me two weeks ago and walked into the Health Department with my head held high. I marched right up to the counter and the woman just looked at me.
Since yesterday I have:
Been splattered with scolding tomato juice,
Chased monsters with a rolling pin,
Turned up to a convent in a black denim mini and a pair of purple fishnets (this was not my fault no one said it would be a convent),
Humiliated myself in front of my entire peer group (this seems to be a daily occurrence now so I wouldn
AARGH! Ok, this has nothing to do with being a queer youth, but I HATE GROUP PROJECTS!!!
Sometimes you really piss me off.
Hey! I'm Ashley and I have dredlocks. I don't know what else to say. I live in "Brew City", WI. ( milwaukee, for those who don't know, now you know!) I'm nice and single and don't know where to look for other "family" members. I'm still in the closet but have the door half way open.
Hey!! Knew to this stuff but I am gay and would like to find some friends to chat with or whatever, I am cute with a great personality so drop me a line @ DeryckConrad@yahoo.com
I came out to my cat this morning before I left for work.
I highly suspect he was on to me for sometime now. The gay porn on my computer could have been a giveaway. Or it could have been that time he caught me making out with a cute boy on the couch... I told him I was confused. HE seemed to accept it at the time.
I hope my coming out to him will not change our relationship for the worse.. I do care for him so... I hope he acceps me for who I am...
so that friends with benifets situation is not going to happen, for many reasons. for one i was under the impression that some caring was involved. she wasn't even willing to wait a few weeks until i'm comfortable. i told her i couldn't so it and she signed off.
theres still heather, there for me as always. i really do have feelings for her but i told her i didn't because of the long distance...
I've been reading all these miserable coming out stories, and I feel so bad, becuase it was so easy for me. so I started wondering; whats the difference? Is it just where I live and who I hang out with that made it so easy? But I didn't feel nervous or anything like most folk, at least only with a few people, like my mom, brother and best friend. I figures it out the other day. The trick is, I didn't need to come out.