I suck. I'm 18 years of age and I don't have a boyfriend. There's no one in sight. Not only that, but I live way out on the outskirts of my city. (not suburbs, just outskirts). Yeah, that means I'm a 30 minute drive from the closest gay hangout. My school is out here, too, but it's to small and too damn closed-minded - I'm not going to find anyone here. (There are 43 seniors in my class).
well, I think the title's obvious.
Everything is spinning commotion at every point
The world in a fog: blury mist rising from heaven to hell..
After a mess of a dying computer, a dying server, business, lost passwords and overall procrastination, I'm back! For those of you that don't know me, I was here before the Oasis server went down, kind of faded out, but now I'm back!
I knew it had to be something inside of me. It was my fault, I was doing something wrong, and as soon as I figured out what it was, I would start to be happy.
She told me I was not the problem. And now I'm happy.
This is just about hopeless. Starting a business will take a long time to get stared. Alot of obsicle to dodge and jump over. Alot of money to spend, and alot of shit to worry about. This requires alot of patience.
First two issues to draw the people in. Would need at least 50-200 readers to take on reading the magazine and hopefully they would be able to suggest or subscribe for the rest of the issues.
So i was online today totally bored because school closed 3 hours early due to inclemit weather. I was checking people's aim profiles, but not talking to them just reading the jokes and stuff, and my freind's profile had a link to a test about your love life. i had just gotten off of thespark.com (killing more time) so i was in a test taking type of mood. So i took the test cause what harm could it do? The questions were like, "what is your name", "what is your crushes name" and a bunch of questions about being a virgin or not.
These are links to my diary sites, I don't feel like copying and pasting all of the words and pictures over.....
This was what may have happened about a year ago... if it wasn't for friends...
There is an incredibly huge chance of me coming out to my english class tommorrow. Mixed exitedness and nerves, but mostly exited. The reason this all comes up is Im giving a speech on the "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" policy, the pinicle of American stupidity. *rolls eyes*
Okay, so two months ago a guy from my real life who barely knew me told me over the internet that he liked me. Against my no dating policy at the time and my better judgment, I told him I liked him too. All was happy.
Two weeks later, after talking online and basically deciding that we would be dating when school started again, he said that it wouldn't work and that we would be better friends than boyfriends. He had no real reason for the change of heart, and I was hurt.
it's time for another round of "I'm mid-way through this paper and it's killing me!", folks!
i think i'm gonna be in a causal type relationship with this girl. more like friends that are close physically too. i'll see what happens when i see her again but that should be interesting. she doesnt want a commited realationship, and i don't really think i could either that this point. i just need someone to hold me.
theres a girl who lives across the country that has a crush on me. thats not going to happen though, for many reasons, distance being the main one. thats been stressing me out, to add on to everything else.