I have two lives, honestly. One is online, where everyone knows I'm
bisexual. The other one is offline (school and family life), where no one
does. I'm a loner at school, so feeling like I was lying to my friends was
However, I've known I was bisexual since the beginning of this school year
(seventh grade), and all of my best friends are online, and it killed me to
not tell them. There, I did feel like I was lying by not saying anything,
and I hated it. One night, I was talking to my absolute best friend on MSN
Messenger, Matt, and somehow, we got onto the topic of sexuality.
At that moment, everything and nothing changed in mine and Matt's
friendship. He told me he was bisexual and had been in a relationship with a
guy for a few weeks, and I almost fainted. It was like. . . 'HOLY SHIT,
YOU'RE BI, TOO?' Only I didn't say that to him. I was silent for a minute,
and then basically told him that I didn't give a damn about his sexuality or
who he loved. After reassuring him I wasn't going to stop being his friend,
I told him it was my turn to come out with a secret.
Matt told me to go ahead, and I took a deep breath, sucked up all my
courage, and told him that I was bisexual, too. Just as I had been, Matt was
silent for a moment, and then did exactly what I had been thinking when he
told me. 'HOLY SHIT, OH MY GOD, YOU TOO?' So, yeah. . . It's sort of ironic,
that my best friend was bi, too, and that it was the fact that he told me
that came to me telling him and coming out to the rest of my online friends,
none of which decided to tell me to 'Fuck off' or leave me.
I'm still working on telling my parents and siblings, but the fact that one
half of my life accepts it will make telling the other half easier.
Location: North Carolina, USA