I've noticed more than a few journal entries here on Oasis of people who seem to be quite depressed; a few who even mention suicide as a distance but possible option. I guess I'm writing this because I went through the exact same experience when I was younger.
I remember that I had just started high school...I was 13 or 14 years old. I was quite naive then, slightly happy-go-lucky. The summer just before the 8th grade, I started becoming a little depressed, but I didn't know why. I had no idea of the concept of depression. But I remembered that one night I couldn't get to sleep, and I went down to the living room, and broke down in tears in front of my Mom. She didn't know what to say or how to comfort me beside just holding me in her arms.
"One more thing I'd like to say right now.
Baby, but you just won't let me.
I'd like to say -
Baby, you're so nice...
I'd like to do the same thing twice"
- Bob Marley
ok, so i know this topic must have come up a lot, but ive never seen or heard anyone's story. i just want to know what it was like to come out, or what keeps you from coming out.
the first person i came out to was one of my friends, i kinda consider him like a big brother. he told me not to jump to conclusions... he's gay, and many things have happened because of it. then i came out to my best friend (yes he one i told youabout who i am with now (: ) and she was irritated and told me to find a girl, kiss her, and if i liked it i was a lesbian, or at least bi. she was mad, because she felt the same for me but couldnt say it. well, i dwelled on what i heard for about four months... then she told me how she felt (older post..) and then i didnt really have a choice, to have a relationship and not tell anyone is half the fun taken away, you know? so, she started telling people, and i was still scared... because she's told me stories of what happened to her in the past, and my "big brother"... and tons of other stories. so i wasnt going to deny anything, but i didnt go around saying it. and it was hard, there was a party, and someone just kinda shouted it out then everyone knew... and its kinda funny because everyone told me i was at least bi... but when i came out, they were like, "no youre joking"... but nothing too seriously bad has happened, and im in the best relationship of my life!!!
Just wanted to tell everybody I'm sorry for all these stupid polls, but I can't stop writing them! It's just taking over me! I'm a little crazy, you see, and weird..And I like to ask questions on things that don't have sense! I hope it makes some of you smile, 'cause I know that being a gay, lesbian or bi person isn't always easy..
And I'm usually a happy person! And I love to make other people happy!
I like rap i can listen to it all day. only every now and then am in not in the mood to hear it. but i wanna know who else likes it. and an odd questoin, i would also like to know where you live.
I found this and thought it was quite good...http://www.topplebush.com/other79.shtml
Letter to George Bush - from unknown devout Christian
Dear President Bush,
Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's law. I have learned a great deal from you and try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some other elements of God's Laws and how to follow them:
Know has a path I am looking back at all I have been
thought and when I wanted to turn around or lay down
and quit I didn't I kept going usually in the
way of telling the world it could go fuck off
and seeing this path that I no longer want to be
on I go into the woods and I clear a path for anyone
who may want off there road they are on. I know
in the way the people still on the road are going to
I always wonder who made up certain words. I think the word therapist is kind
of creepy cuz if you separte it, it becomes "the rapist". and also why
did they make up a whole other way to say the "f" sound...you could just spell
it elefant or fone. It doesnt really make any seince its just more thing to
learn and after a while you just get used to it but its still weird. And why do we
spell sure and sugar with no "h" even tho it makes the "sh" sound?
Mmm ... mocha! Strong and rich — but not too sweet — you're the flavor of late nights and early mornings. A coffeehouse regular, you've cornered the market on deep thoughts and probably have a little more than your fair share of brains. In fact, those who know you may even consider you an intellectual, a label that suits you just fine. Deep and thoughtful, you love the academic life — or at least the structured pursuit of knowledge. And, since hitting the books often means all-nighters, what better flavor than mocha to keep you company? Chocolaty and intense, you're a truly tasty treat.
I should be studying/practicing for my finals, but I really don't want to right now... This is a lovely song, and I started really listening to it when Laura and I had our two arguments in the past few days.
"Take It All Away" by Ryan Cabrera
So much beauty in life
Shining on the outside
Empty on the inside
I get lost sometimes
Blinded by the flashing lights
Distractions always in my eyes
Having a sharp tongue can cut your own throat.
If you want your dreams to come true, don't oversleep.
The smallest good deed is better than the grandest intention.
Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.
The best vitamin for making friends....B1.
The 10 commandments are not multiple choice.
The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
Minds are like parachutes...they function only when open.
(I have completely fallen in love with this band)
So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).
So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
i got a haircut...and i did it myself. cuz ima G like dat. i know ya'll wanted to know, so thurr ya go. have a wonderful night.
ok so this is probaly the greatest cartoon ive ever seen in my life. i saw it for the first time this fall...but i know it came out in the fall of 2001. have any of you seen it? me and my friends like to smoke a bowl and then put on the aqua teen DVD...always g00d times. her, here's a few lines from the show so you can see how friggin' funny it is:
"Ok, now guys i do not wanna do anything illegal here...But i would kill someone, in front of they own mama for a ten speed..." -meatwad
this is a super random post about myself and my part time job at which i am the master cause i feel like they actually trust me to be somewhat responsible i feel um special i guess you could say???
My job is not overly difficult i work at a high end grocery store in my hometown..it is ridiculously posh and well its ok...its near my school and home so its a great deal for me as far as location goes :) i work selling prepared food and my boss is known to have made everyone else go crazy, quit or fear her...but i have mde it count- almost a yr in that department..im what they call the miracle girl-the baby- and apparently the rumor is i can get away with murder cause they (my boss )doesnt want to lose me (i go insane due to her bitching and quit lol)
Rocked silent in a soft lullaby
Panic stirred me awakened by a ringing phone in time
Where and when would I see her?
Crazy were the words that scribbled out your mouth
I stuttered replacing your face to those words
Where and when would I kill her?
I'll wish on this, I'll wish with this
I wish...To the bitter end of my day
Where were you?
So you had your turn and you made it work
Now I'm the laughing stock of your joke
O.K. My band was put together without Erik when I was
13. I immeditally was the singer, Danny was the drummer
Leo a year younger knew how to play guitar and became
a bass player. A guy named two year older than me
became are eletric guitar player. Alex was are
keyboardist when we needed one.
The band was orginally called Pieces of Heaven.
That name would change a hundred times along with are
This poem had a huge effect on me, even though I'm an atheist. It's such a wonderful poem, though... It's from the book "True Beleiver" in the "Make Lemonade Trilogy" by Virginia Euwer Wolff. It's written entirely in poems. In it, the main character falls in love with her old friend, Jody, and she later finds out he is gay, and her two friends, Myrtle and Annie, become fanatic Christians (just so you know the background for the poem):
"Be With You" by Enrique Iglesias
Monday night, and I feel so low,
I count the hours, but they go so slow.
I know the sound of your voice, can save my soul.
City lights, the streets are gold.
Looked down my window to the world below.
Move so fast, but it feels so cold
And I am all alone,
Don’t let me die, I’m losing my mind,
Baby, just give me a sign.
And now that you’re gone,
I noticed how some of the ppl here are very picky when it comes to spelling.
Words like: because=cuz, school=skool, your;you're=ur and so on. I tend
to spell with some of the slang words but only cuz (< see i just did it) i've been typing
like that ever seince my sis got me hooked on AIM. I only use a few slang words
(which i think still pisses some ppl off) but i've seen people who wont even use