Have you ever had one of those indecisive moments? For example, I have more homework to complete tonight than I care to mention, but now I am in the process of not only updating on Oasis, but trying to convince myself that seeing a movie (Julie and Julia) is a grand idea. So what am I indecisive about? Well should I stay or should I go? Ha, I’ll probably go see the movie because I know myself well enough to know that even if it means I’m pulling an all nighter, I will not have late school work…no way, no how. So has anyone see Julie and Julia?
According to Blogthings, I need success to be happy. Which is completely true, sadly enough. Maybe that's why I hold back so often.. because I'm scared to fail.
So I went to the movie with her and our friend.. then we hung out at his house for a while afterwards.
She doesn't like me in a more than friends way, I can tell. I didn't tell her, but I mean... she would show signs that she likes me, right? There were none. Nada. And you know, it really doesn't bother me. Maybe I don't like her as much as I thought I did.. maybe my feelings have changed.
EMW (which is the name of some furniture company apparently haha)
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
don't know the name, but the son of one of my 6th-grade teachers...
3. Favorite fruit?
4. For or against same sex marriage?
hm, let me think about that one...
5. Are you allergic to anything?
cold (for real, it's called cold urticaria), something in the air in CO in spring, pineapples and bananas a little bit
6. Are you bisexual?
if we must have labels, i suppose that's one that fits me...
Hey peeps feeling a little lonely over here PM me! I have better things to do but I'd rather not do them (homework, hamster maintenance, chores, etc.). =)
ive never believed in Looking for love to find it.
but ive also realised when the only 2 non-straight ppl in my school are my my exgirlfriend and non-friend .. and they'r dating eachother.. its hard to just Wait for someone special to come along.
Especially being in and out the closet at the same time.. in at home and out well otherwise but being only 14 even being half out makes itharder getting around meeting people or even making friends i have things in common with.
Liam convinced his dad to give him his old camera (of awesome and fabulous) AND Liam just happens to have a computer handy with Sony Vegas 7.0. But Liam has NO IDEAS for videos to make and attack the world with.
Today was a good day. I haven't had one of those in a long time. It was also pretty strange because it feels like I'm missing chunks of time. I sort of spent the entire day in a foggy, time-warp thing. I'm having a really hard time focusing on one thing.. I feel like my mind and body are separate, like my mind exists outside of my body.
Okay, I wrote something earlier today, well, yesterday, but I felt the need to write again, so here I am.. It's, like, 2:40 in the morning now and I'm not supposed to be on the computer now, but who cares?
Because I feel like being a pessimist. I can't be entirely optimistic all of the time right? So I'm going to make a list of pet peeves and stuff. Because I'm bored...
The title is the name of a song that I happen to like. It's italian. I think it means "Sing for me" but I'm not sure.
I sent the e-mail.. (The one I mentioned in my last journal.) No reply yet. I don't care if I get one or not. The intention was to let her know.
Anyways, we went clothes shopping yesterday. I bought some jeans...
I watched the end of Chrono Crusade today. It was sad... Sad is an understatement. I cried, a lot. Poor Asmaria.
I'm also waiting for the last episode of Kyou Kara Maoh to be uploaded to youtube. That series isn't like, amazing or anything, but it's worth watching just for Yurri and Wolfram. XD I love those two. <3
Okay, I should be writing, because book two is not progressing as quickly as I want. Instead, I'm sitting here, bored to tears, instead of doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Why is that sometimes we'll do absolutely anything to avoid doing the things we know we're supposed to do? I mean, I have the best job in the world, for Pete's sake. Sometimes though, I just can't bring myself to do it.
I slept like, all day today. And I'm still sleepy. All I've been doing is eating and sleeping latley. And drawing.
I just got done reading Smack. It’s a really good book but its made me think way too much. I know its not the point the author was trying to make but I want to... chase the dragon. Just once to see what its like and go. Just go somewhere for a while, meet new people, live. I know I shouldn't, I mean I've got a roof over my head. My mum, my animals, a job, an abusive person who claims to love my mum. But other than him I've got it good. Except I don't know who I am, I'm so bored with myself and my life I feel burnt out all ready and I haven’t even done anything. I'm eighteen years old for Anubis's sake I have many years before me but I feel like I've let too many years slide away without meaning.