My innocence is breaking. That feeling of young love and bursting feeling is disintegrating into memories where people find it later in their lives wondering what had happened.
Last night's sjoelen and oliebollen party went well. Regi couldn't come, which was good and bad really. I mean, it would have been fun for her and for me if she had been there, but I'm sure it was good that Sunny and Ladybug got more attention because of Regi's absence. Ladybug's dad couldn't remember the word 'oliebollen,' so he called them 'boll weevils,' in full knowledge that that was wrong, and everybody kept laughing throughout the evening whenever anybody mentioned 'boll weevils.' 'Oliebollen' literally means 'oily balls,' by the way, which may not be any better.
I have been sporadically writing here since 2005. At that time I thought I was bisexual with straight tendencies. Now I am almost certain that is not the case.
Over the years I have had boyfriends, and I am currently married to a man. This is apparently completely irrelevant.
I've come back a few times and visited what I have written here. Most of it was a lot of trying to prove to myself who I was, and denying that I wasn't what I wanted to be.
I looked back at the entry before this one - I quit high school three times. I went to a normal high school, left for legitimate reasons. Tried again, left for the same reasons, and the third time..
I left because leaving before left me in a position where I was to be doomed to be in Highschool until..
When did it change from GLBT to LGBT???? For years it was always GLBT and now suddenly its LGBT? I like the GLBT Better....to be politically correct it should be BGLT or just BGT, What do you guys and gals think????
Okay I am going to be getting a new oasis name soon. I don't like the name wantstobeout. I'll tell you when I do in case you'd like to know. I'll post a journal or something. It will probably have something to with... (sorry not gonna tell yet. I'm a tease.) Okay so also I'm thinking of names that start with E.
You know. Every second of my life it seems like I can't develop more. Back in 4th grade - I thought that puberty was a bunch of bullshit - that all that happens is that you get bigger and grow hair.
Boy was I wrong! I turned out to be attracted to males. I wasn't consciously aware that I was a fag - but that came a year later.
Happy New Years, everyone! Hope y'all had fun last night and the night before with your...whoever you're hanging out with. Lol. XDD
Not much to say...I've resumed my story writings. :3