Being different is hard for everyone and I know that, but I just feel like there is totally something wrong with me. I don't feel comfortable with who I am as a person and it hurts my heart greatly. I'm always surrounded by people everyday, but I feel invisible to the world. Honestly, I came to a few conclusions that I made myself believe. I told myself that if I smile,even when I'm in pain, that it will make everything better. Is that really the case? No, I actually feel worse for doing that.
Where do I start?
The real question is where do I fit in? Everybody seems to have a niecly-cut niche, a group of friends, an obsession. I'm just not sure what I am supposed to be. Sometimes I'm too nerdy, and sometimes too stupid. And usually not funny, except for those 'rarities' where I'm being offensive.
It seems so dramatic and wierd and akward to make such a big fuss over something so trivial, so unimportant in the grand scheme of things.