I believe today is going to be a strange day. It may sound odd enough to even begin the day by saying it will be bizarre…but somehow I inherently feel today it is going to be a different. You may presume this would be due to what I would do differently today, but in fact, it’ll be because of what happened yesterday. I came out to a very close family friend, close enough to be my aunt, that is.
To a lot of high school students our final year must go out with a bang-whether that means getting a whole new wardrobe, showing a side that people never thought to have seen of you or getting a date for all the social events that are going on that graduating students would most definitely want to take part in. Now, the main problem is that although it’s nice to go to these events with your closest friends and create the best of memories with them, a small part of me wishes that I do that with a potential partner.
I've been thinking lately and I've decided that I'm going to wait three months and if nothing happens between me and my friend (the one I like) then I'm just gonna give up and try my hardest to move on because if things keep on as they are, I'm gonna be feeling bad and lovesick for the rest of my life... I'm also thinking about coming out to my mommy this summer... I have no clue how she's gonna react but I'm just hoping for the best.
I just remembered this and I think it is worth mentioning. I had a friend through all of middle school called Will. We were best friends, and he was my only friend here who's ever been to my house. Well, I've known him for a long time, so maybe that's why I've never noticed this, but a couple of my friends say that he's a flaming closet gay. This was sort of a shock to me, for some reason (maybe because he's said some homophobic stuff). Anyway, in 7th grade, there were rumors that we were more than friends.
I love you. I know I can't ever tell you.. not again. And I can't ever tell anyone. I love Dina. I'm with Dina. And I'm happy with Dina. But I love you.
I can't stand hiding this. Last time you seemed fine at the prospect of me having feelings for you. I just couldn't accept them fully.
You know, maybe I'm "bi" or whatever. I don't know. All I know is I love you. I always will. I have for the last year and a half. I've lied to you, my family, Dina and myself.
I am in love with Dina and I do want to spend the rest of my life with her. I just also will always love you.
My life is full of adventures, dilemmas and weird situations.
For now, I'll talk about how I come out to my friend.
Hey, I wanna ask for advice on behalf of one of my friends. I was talking to her about how she needs a straight version of Oasis, then I was like *lightbulb*, I can just ask y'all.
So, my friend just got a new (not) boyfriend. We shall call him J. Now J was at a party, and during this time someone outed him to his parents, which didn't take it well, at all. When Id-Boy (my friend) went to see him the next day, J's parents were really rude to him, and no one would leave them alone.
I was having a totally incredible, awesome day today until I got an email from a friend telling me he had just been diagnosed AGAIN with Hodgkins Lymphoma. It's not the most virulent type of cancer by any means, but it's worrisome still, particularly because it's his second go-round.
Warning: this may sound silly.
So I posted an article about Prop 8 and a couple of those laws that passed in other states (like the adoption one in Arkansas) on my Facebook. A friend of mine (incidentally, the only person in my dorm I'm out to... but that's cuz she flat-out asked) commented on it, "I am sorry sweetie. But I am against Gay Marriage."
that's how rarely i am stressed and/or pissed off.
WARNING! WARNING! WARNING: LONG, POINTLESS, ANGRY RANT AHEAD. DO NOT CONTINUE IF YOU HAVE HEART PROBLEMS AND/OR SUFFER FROM VARIOUS ATTENTION ISSUES SUCH AS ADD, ADHD, OR ANY OF THE COMBINATIONS OF THOSE LETTERS. :D
May 7, 2007
Hmm...so I see my counsellor tomorrow...and I'll have something to hide from her...
I found out this stuff (concerning a straight friend of mine) this weekend...now I'm scared...for her.
I never knew. Never knew that all this time, she was still doing it..Oh, man. *Sigh*
On a happier note, I went to work today...my feet are sore, but it's worth it..
I went to the mall today...or should i say yesterday? 'cause it's like 2 almost 3 in the morning. but anyways i went with my coworker and my friend to watch Black Christmas, it was a pretty alrite movie. i kinda spent too much money today...damn but sometimes you just have to splurge on yourself right?