So I haven't been on here in a long time so I'm going to try and make this shorter than it would be. Lol. Well my first year at university is almost over and its been fun. I gave a guy my number, his name was James, nothing really came out from it but i tried. Passed all my courses and learned Spanish my first semester, well part 1 and 2 Spanish. Now I need to learn part 3 and 4. Second semester went well too. I've had a chance to mke some great friends, and find new male interests. A guy I find majorly hot is Marcel, he's in my politics class. Idk about him but I'm going to try and find out.
A simple concept turned horribly complicated.
unconditional love; that's what friends and family should show each other
anything; that's what friends and family should do for each other
Once I finally came out to myself that I am Bi, I felt that I should tell at least one person so that I didn't have to continue to hide.
First I picked one of my good friends. The only bad thing is, that she is the daughter of a LCMS pastor. (NOTE: all of my friends are Lutheran, because I go to a private LCMS Lutheran School) She took it pretty well actually. She told me that she won't like my decision (even though its not really a decision) but that she will respect it and she told me that no matter what happenes, she will never leave me.
She was the person who took it the best.
Ok so where do I start? Everytime I take one step forward, life throws me three steps back. I need to find a new job quick b/c im running out of money, and i still have to pay for university and car insurance. Me and Ricky are talking but not in public or face to face, all we seem t do is message each other on facebook. :( Wish I could get some one-on-one with him. For the past three months I've been harassed about being gay and being in weight room.
its been a few months since the incident occurred,,, it was one of those random nights out with the friends:)
we went out ate food told jokes, hung out late... and then wen no one else was left the group of four(including me) went to the pick up and told stories in the back.
HE was there too.. my first real ever Guy crush... idk wat made him so different from the other crushes before.. mayb cuz he was,,, well the only one i actually wanted to have a relationship with rather than jus makeout and stare forever- off course i wanted those too, bt wit him... it was all different.
i used to have a huge crush on some guy at school and i confronted him over last summer. i knew he was gay so there shouldn't be any awkwardness but he began to avoid me and i got the hint. he obviously had no interest in me. at first it was really hard accepting the fact we could not be together.
I finally told my friends about myself, and it wasn't incredibly awkward because everybody was sharing their own stories, not neccessarily having to do with LGBTQ identities, though. At a sleepover my friends and I were all sharing secrets and when it was my turn to inform them of one of my secrets, I explained that I only had two big secrets that they didn't already know. Those two being, first, that I am transsexual, and second, that I like a girl from our school.
College is soooo much better than high school! I finally got away from all those judgmental freaks I used to have to call my classmates. Ok.. So they weren't all judgmental freaks.. Just most of them.. Anyways I really haven't been on here in a while and thought y'all might like to know that I'm no longer in the closet, At least not completely. (my mom and dad still don't know, but it's only a matter of time. I personally think they're in denial.
Ok, my name is Emily, and I have the blues. The deep down, navy blues to be exact. I have almost come to the conclusion that I'm gay. But no one knows this. At all. No one even suspects it. I was in a committed relationship with a guy for two years. And on the surface, we were a perfect couple. But, I just could not make myself like him as anything other than a friend. I just don't desire guys in "that way". Just the though of "consumating" a relationship with a guy makes me want to gag! But I feel totally different about girls! The big problem is: I live in Mississippi.
eight days in florida are never enough, especially when the temperature most of those days is rather chilly. blarghh!...... Father broke up with his girlfriend and not on amicable terms either. This sucks because I've started to become good friends with her eldest son.
I had a few really nice phone/text conversations with Littlefoot while I was down there..... it got me thinking about the nature of our friendship. One night I had an x rated dream about her....
Anyone seen "Mango Kiss?" I have seen most but not all. From what I saw it was great. Damn it was funny! And I tell ya what I could relate to those women. If you want to watch a preview check out the link below.
Yeah, so I'm leaving Oasis b/c some people are backstabbing assholes...
Someone's telling everybody about my account, so I'm gonna delete it soon, already deleted all the entries. I hate drama, and almost everyone around here is full of it.
So this is goodbye, if any of you wanna stay in contact with me, just PM me before the account's gone, and I'll give ya a contact :)
I just joined this site, so I'm not really sure how things work around here, but I suppose a nice little situation synopsis would be a decent way to start. I'm heading off to boarding school in a couple months. It's a very nice school, relatively liberal, and the people are insanely friendly. My main worry is how to approach my sexuality. I'm lesbian,
The last few times I've gotten together with my big group of friends have been extremely frustrating. The last two times, we've played Truth or Dare. Fun game, right? And it is, we have a blast. But I always end up disappointed.
Every time I go, I do Truth, not because I don't like doing dares but because there are two truths that I want to share but don't want to bring up myself. When one of the two girls that I've come out to in this group goes, I try to tell them with my eyes, Ask me! But of course they never do. And when the opportunity presents itself, I chicken out.
I had a dream last night that was something I've been wishing and wishing to happen. Firstly, (in the dream) one of my friends joined Oasis. I remember in the dream her username was Michelleasusual or something. Anyways, she commented on one of my posts, one of my angsty why-doesn't-K-love-me ones, but not one where I mentioned "K", so she was like, "Um, what were you talking about here?" I told her to read my other posts and if she figured out who K was to please not say anything. Then, later on in the dream, K herself was like, "Isn't Oasis that site you're on?
Well, well, well..
It's been well over two months since my last post, I believe... Wait.. maybe it's been two months. I don't remember. Anyways, I'm back.
A lot has happened in the past two months! I'm sure I could write a book about it all, too haha. I'll just make a list & vent today. =]
Ugh. So me and a bunch of my girlfriends had a party last night for a foreign exchange student friend of ours who's leaving soon. It was a really fun party, we went to Jumpstreet (giant wall-to-wall trampoline place XD) and watched Twilight and made fun of Robert Pattinson and I secretly swooned over Alice, but--well, there's always a but isn't there?
My friend Aura just joined and posted his first post. Everyone make him feel welcome okay?
Gotta get back to the book now. Be back soon.
Here's my preface: I'm not a pussy.
Anyways. So I was supposed to go to the dance with T but he had to work so it didn't work out. Instead I tried to help G get a dress because I had some but none of them fit. Then we tried to cash a check, but it didn't work out.
The dance did end up being fun. I hung out with people like E (has the same name as me), A, and J. All very cool people, by the way.
So I saw S there (the girl I went to dinner with) and somehow I had her number wrong in her phone. I'm glad I fixed this problem. More dates. Yayness.
I'm sick and tired of "bi" girls. I'm freaking DONE with being the experiment. I hate the fact that almost every girl I like decides to use me. Kiss me, touch me, whisper sweet things to me. And then dump me on the side of the road. I feel like I'm lost in the tundra with nothing on but my scarred skin. I want to be loved, damn it! I want to, at least ONCE, feel appreciated. LOVE. Isn't that what I'm about?