Basically since this past weekend things have been getting crappier. So this last weekend at a party I was drunk as usual and well I kissed a girl and then a guy, but kissing him was more like and impulse that my drunken brain decided to follow; the guy didn't do anything so I thought that he was ok with it, but boy I was really wrong.
I say it all the time; I hate people, I hate humans. I can't help but love them though, despite all their stupidity the modern media has fallen into. At the same time, I hate myself also. I'm such a hypocrite. I tell people all the time that life is worth living, that it could be so much worse, but right now I'm having a hard time convincing myself that. I get angry when people can't make up their minds but I'm terribly indecisive and semi co-dependent. I hate so many things that I turn around and do myself then forget about it like I wasn't just yelling at someone for the exact same thing.
Well, well, well..
It's been well over two months since my last post, I believe... Wait.. maybe it's been two months. I don't remember. Anyways, I'm back.
A lot has happened in the past two months! I'm sure I could write a book about it all, too haha. I'll just make a list & vent today. =]
Well everyone i got stupid. i bought my ex that i was going to ask out a reeses and then gave him a note asking him out even though i knew he would say no.
i am knida wanting him to say yes, but i know its a no. this can only end badly. i am probably going to ask another person out by the end of the day. might be a stupid redneck again.
this is the mental property of me: Shadow1992
Okay, I wrote something earlier today, well, yesterday, but I felt the need to write again, so here I am.. It's, like, 2:40 in the morning now and I'm not supposed to be on the computer now, but who cares?
i was on youtube and came upon these videos, im posting them up to show us ppl in oasis that we need to get out there and fight this war, show our true colors and stand for what we believe in.........
Last weekend I was in my school's production of the Laramie Project it was awesome. I mean I cried by the end of every show but it was amazing to be a part of. For those of you who don't know, Laramie Project is a play that is made from a collection of interviews with people of the town of Laramie Wyoming after the beating and death of Mathew Shephard in 1998 because he was gay.
So recently I've been noticing the extreme criticism that gay and bisexual life style gets in my school. People aren't using gay as a general insult, rather actually referring to sexuality. I don't react- I'm too shy. I wish I could though. It hurts.
It's hard trying to fit in when you're 11 and gay D:
I have started a petition to garner support for a protest at Westboro Babtist Church. I have started organizing the protest for April 2008. They are the ones who hold up signs saying "God Hates Fages". I would appreciate it if you could pass this info on to your group members. Thanks So Much!
I feel kinda bad, got into an argument with my mom in 2 different parking lots, just feel like i did something so wrong because she said she was depressed about the usual, and was like take me home and just ope that she just doesn't do anything...
In the world Today the greatest tragedy is that all people aren't treated as they should
be and i understand that people have the right to there own veiw's at the way they see
things but why must things be seen as a problem if you don't see thing's eye to eye
so know i put this question to all people why is it that we hate so much things we don't
It's been quite some time since I last wrote to you guys, and I'm hurt. Very hurt.
Something's happening...I need to take control. I'm going to tell you all about my past. There was a time in my life, when I hated myself.
Literally. I despised me myself and I.
I hate you every time you walk into my room
Because I think your going to yell at me as you did before
I hate you every time you stare
Because I think you're glaring as you did before
I hate you every time you cuss
Because I think you'll blow up as you did before
I hate you everytime you call my name
Because I think you'll blame me as you did before
I hate you when you get mad