OK just to let you youngens know even us old folk get depressed once in a while. Today my lover of 19 years took off for Atlanta by him self. He is going there to meet up with a guy he has never met face to face but only on the internet. He will spend this afternoon, all of tomorrow and the next day, with him then head back here the following day. True we have an open relationship for sex only since I cant get it up to pleasure him any more (viagra doesn't work on me) and we both have agreed that we can seek out partners for the purpose of sex only.