When I first signed onto this site, I told myself I would refrain from writing anything personal because it just isn't my style but I have to admit now that I'm really lonely and in need of some support. Also, I'm running out of things to keep me numb. Before when my depression would get extremely bad, I would focus on the present or distract myself with a hobby, mostly I would daydream about the future and what I hoped to accomplish but now I feel like that was just false hope because here I am, years later; still miserable and a failure.

My innocence is breaking. That feeling of young love and bursting feeling is disintegrating into memories where people find it later in their lives wondering what had happened.

hey like is there any gays in georgia that would like to talk to me

Well, December is turning out to be a rather crappy month. I've had two dates planned scheduled so far (okay, not dates, per se, but plans with men). First, my BFF Casey was supposed to take me out to dinner on my birthday, but he got sick and had to cancel. Then tonight, another friend, Martin, was supposed to come over and do the pizza delivery+movie thing. So can you guess what happens?

I feel kinda bad, got into an argument with my mom in 2 different parking lots, just feel like i did something so wrong because she said she was depressed about the usual, and was like take me home and just ope that she just doesn't do anything...