I'm currently supposed to be finishing up some homework. I don't feel like it for multiple reasons, but one thing that bothers me is that my full name is prominently displayed whenever I go to do it. It's online homework, and so it's under my full legal name, the one I gave the college. It's infuriating. I feel depressed when I look at it, like my work is all really someone else's.

And of course, binding hurts, is itchy and uncomfortable, but I'm scared to transition, scared that I'll regret it. Yet I'm binding daily and disguising my feminine features. I'm so frustrated right now. :(

Go to urbandictionary.com, type in your first name, and then post on here what you get.

I've decided to not get any more "new" nicknames. I already have like 4 thanks to the "Anti-cheese-thieves" group. one thing they thought would be really funny is to call me and 5 other friends sykes "because there's 5 letters in it". that's basically how i got this nickname :-\

so about their naming 'fetish'... i should really make a chart of some sort :D