On January 20th i came out to my mom. Boy was that the worst mistake i made. lol i mean she went through a heckload of personalities in a matter of 1 & 1/2 days.
So, about two months ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and the doctor prescribed me a new medication (on top of my other one) called Risperdal, an antipsychotic. It works great. I was happy to not be staying up until 3 am and thinking birds and inanimate objects were plotting against me and obsessively trying to prove that the "dx" at the end of an integral is the same thing as zero. But, contrary to the opinion of my therapist and psychiatrist, I'm done with the new meds now.
I've just booked my flights to the Philippines and Taiwan over the summer break.
Some of you may know this already, but I'll be in the Philippines over new years for a debating tournament, then I'll visit my parents in Taiwan.
This was going to be a post about how Gabe Saporta and his stupud face and stupid band make me really happy and I don't know how I feel about that, followed by some commentary on forced religion in weddings and how far one should comprimise, but instead it turned into a post about making use of your mobile phone and how awesome my mother is. Idk.
Although it pains me greatly to post thrice in the span of four and twenty hours, this truly merits immediate note.
I just came out to my parents!
So yesterday I went to an Aerosmith concert and it was like amazing right?!
Sometimes I think it would be easier to have homophobic parents. At least then I would know why they hate me.
So, my parents know about my sexuality; I told them about a year ago. The problem is they're Christian and completely reject that part of me. We haven't really talked about it since I came out to them, but it's still hanging around the air. There's always those quiet, awkward moments after someone says something when everyone knows everything's thinking about me being gay. It hurts me to know that my family doesn't accept me, and they don't even try to learn what it's all about. All they know is the bible says it's wrong, end of story.
I'm sure there are other posts like this, but whatever. So... The question is, do your parents know? If so, how did you bring it up? What were their reactions? If not, are you going to tell them? How? When? And which parent would be (or is) more accepting?
Came out to my mom via email today. Half relieved and half freaked out of mind. And she wants to talk about it face to face which I don't think I can do, but she's probably going to try and corner me at home...
OMFG?!?!?! I'm turning eighteen in less than a month (yays!), but that isn't the point. My parent's are divorced and have split custody of me, my older brother and my younger sister. Now, legally when I turn eighteen I don't have to follow their parenting plan. Meaning I don't have to go back and forth every Sunday and live with one parent for one week and then the other for the other week. Confusing for outsiders I'm sure. But it works for us.
Hello everyone, I'm just updating a little, because I've been offline for soo long.
Yeah, I was grounded from my computer for forever, which is why I've been off, and when I actually could get on, I spent all my time reading everyone's posts instead of contributing... ^^;;;
OK, gonna try to make this make sense, without making it insanely long. So...well I've been up in the mountains for the first half of the weekend with K, at her family's timeshare house in Keystone. So that was freakin' awesome.
Then I get home today and kinda settle in for a bit.
Then my mom's like "Hey Emily can I talk to you?" So we go up to my room and she sits on my bed and I kinda stand and look at her like "OK what?" and she goes "You can sit down" and I'm thinking like "Holy shit what terrible news are you about to share??"
This might be a little complicated. Just an F.Y.I.
Ok so my friend Joey and his one friend Emma are going to a GSA meeting at Emma's school. I really want to go it, but my parents don't know I'm bi yet and they wouldn't let me go anywhere without knowing the full story. Should I lye and tell them I'm goin somewhere else and then go to the meeting, or come out to my parents and see if they let me go to the meeting, or just skip the meeting which I really don't wanna do.
Okay I just sat up all night writing my response to chey's "confused..." post. I think I did a pretty goood job of it, though I did get a bit long-winded. It's the drawback of being both a writer AND a history nut, I think.
Now I have to get my ass to sleep, cuz my eyes are about to melt.
Nitey nite all. Hugs.
My mother is a bitch I have decided. And I often feel she doesn't really 'get' me. Being 16 and all I suppose this is natural. It's not that she doesn't care and stuff and we do have some things in common. I don't think she has realized this but one reason I think there's now more space between us is my brother, in a somewhat indirect way. You see my brother is a few years older than me.
Okay so it's been awhile since i have written here; and i sense it will be long. I ah I don't know how to say this. I have used R. as a crutch not believing someone will fall for me because of the chair blah blah blah obviously stupid I know. Let that prelude the rest of this post.
Wow, I just read "Advice from Toblerone" in the Coming out section, and it made me cry; the part about his parents saying that it's not something that can be changed, and they'll all just have to live with it, that they're sorry they couldn't help the confusion more when he was younger, that they love him just as much if not more...
Alright, rant time.
By the way... thank you guys so much for the comments! Makes it all so much better :)
By the way #2 - I'm listening to depressing Russian music, so thoughts might be a bit jumbled.
I'm not really sure what just happened. My parents seemed to take it okay, but I'm still not sure if they believe me. My mom says I don't have to feel like I need to decide. And I'm not sure they realize that I just...KNOW. My dad didn't say anything. I don't really know what they think. It's so confusing!