Being confused with my sexuality was bad but I think gender is even worse. I wake up some days and am really unhappy with the fact that I have breasts and a vagina. Then I'll go to bed and wake up and be okay with my body. But two weeks ago I had that feeling and it hasnt gone away since. For the past couple of months I've identifies as bi-gender/androgynous so I dont have to deal with it.
I played HORRIBLE today at my basketball game. Not like a couple of mistakes but every play I pretty much fucked it up. Total playing time: 4 minutes, I was that bad. I feel bad for my family they were trying to cheer me up and I treated them badly. I'll have to say sorry to them tomorrow.Oh well hopefully I'll NEVER play that bad again. I'll just call it an off day.
Good news in my life right now: Im going to NYC in 2 days and am going to see rent and do some christmas shopping.