At some point in time it started feeling like i didn't belong in my own life, how the fuck do you explain that one? its like your in the wrong place and its always the wrong time, like a bad dream. oh well it wont last forever its just gonna feel like it :/ plus all this crazy shit with my ex(broken up for 6 months after 3 years together), he said he loved me after we had sex last week, i still have feelings for him but im not sure if i should :( am i doing something wrong?
to those whose names shall remain anonymous i wouldn't have joined if i wasn't gay.
i just joined since i don't have anything to do. i'm just home alone with my classical guitar... well i should get going.
“In Paris they simply stared when I spoke to them in French; I never did succeed in making those idiots understand their own language” -Mark Twain
I have merely scanned the posts from the past day or so, not having had time to go in-depth a read them all. Still, I can make a few observations and offer a little general advice, for what it's worth.
I feel a little silly for asking these questions, but this is a blog thingy so, I suppose this is an appropriate place to post these burning questions I have for myself. Well, the questions are "who am I really?" and "why am I unable to understand myself?" These are questions that I've placed in the back of my mind and haven't attempted to answer.
I slept like, all day today. And I'm still sleepy. All I've been doing is eating and sleeping latley. And drawing.